SELF DOUBT

Now I am waiting for my mates to complete 'the talk' with Mr.Mith. It's been an hour and they are not back yet. I don't understand what they are talking about.

Did Mr.Mith allow?

What if he did not?

Are they okay?

If he allowed, what will I do with them?

'Bella you too know what you will do.' Said my subconscious while glaring to me through her round like specs.

That only let my heart beat faster and my face to turn pink.

Why am I like this? Always shying away and turning pink. I can not even take a simple compliment without turning pink. How will I become a luna and help my males to run the pack?

What if they get fed up with me and rejects me? My eyes welled up with that thought.

And also I am a cry baby. And not beautiful while they are walking gods. I'm sure they will get bored and reject me. And I'm not even experienced.

I know nothing about sex or pleasuring my mates that to 3 mates. I know they are experienced and are not virgins. Why would they wait for me? Of course, I am not so valuable for waiting.

The thought brought a twinge of pains in my heart and my wolf whimpered and asked to stop but I could not stop.

If they reject me I will go to my orphanage back to Mrs. Pi...

O God I forgot to call Mrs. Pim. Maybe she is worried about me and I have not provided her any number. I should have called her. But how?

Now I was pacing back and forth. Maybe I should call Mrs. Pim from my mate's number but when will they return and it's getting late. Maybe I should ask Rayne or Justin maybe Romika.

So I decided to saunter towards them and call Mrs. Pim. It was not hard searching for them as I could smell them.

When I reached my camp I saw cole to be resting in the arms of Morpheus

while Romika is applying medicine to his wounds while Justin is trying to light a fire and Rayne is nowhere to be found.

Perhaps he went to bring the log for the fire?

I walked toward Justin and stand behind him not knowing what to say.

He quickly turned around as he felt someone's presence behind and was taken aback? socked? To see me.

"Hey!"

"He...hello "

"Sorry about what happened there. I don't know my mates would be there, I went to search for Mr. Mith to call Mrs. Pim or you guys would come in search for me or cole will talk stupidly or my mates would be....." I continued my ramble until Justin start laughing.

" what happened?" I asked embarrassed.

"It's not your fault Bella. I just freaked out that you are a werewolf and that too you have 3 mates... Alpha mates and who leads one of the biggest and dangerous packs in the world. "

WHAT?

"But how do you know about werewolves? You are human."

"I did research Bella."

"Ohh." Maybe.

"Justin could you please lend me your cell phone so I could call Mrs. Pim."

"Of course" he pulled out his cell phone and handed me.

" Thank you," I said and received a shrug from Justin.

I walked to a more silent place where I could listen to precisely.

I called Mrs.Pim and she received the moment it started to chime.

"Bella, how are you? I was so scared and worried about you." She said in a low and soft voice.

" yeah, Mrs. Pim I'm fine and you don't have to be worried. I'm so sorry I could not call you earlier. And i. Have... "

" what is it, Bella?"

"I... Actually... Found my...ma... Mates"

" what... Bella, I'm so so happy for you. Darling, you deserve the world. Wait did your say mates Bella?"

"Yeah, I have 3 mates. They are triplets and are alphas."

"O my... Stay happy and don't forget this old lady." How can I forget her?

"I have to go okay I will talk to you later. I love you "

"Bye. I love you... " was startled when an arm snaked in my waist and pulled me back to a strong chest.

I turned back to be face to face with Ronan's chest. He smells so good.

I looked up to see him smiling at me.

" Who were you talking to Bella? Do we have to beat another admirer of yours." He said with a clenched jaw.

"I was talking to Mrs.Pim. My caretaker at the orphanage." He visibly relaxed and said " Thank the moon goddess it's not any guy. Anyway two of them are waiting for you. We have something to talk to you about. Let's go. Shall we?"

"Yes... O wait I have to give Justin's cell phone back." I said nervously

"Okay, we will give him the cell phone"

I nod and follow him. I don't know what to say and I walk awkwardly by his side.

Maybe they want to reject me as they have someone more beautiful as there girlfriend or wife. I don't even know if they are married. Are they? My wolf howled lowly inside me and sadness gripped my heart.

I didn't realize I slowed down until Ronan put his hand in my hand and pulled me forward to him. And whispered to me" Stop overthinking beautiful. If you don't stop I will spank you here and right now in the forest."

My breath got hitched and I looked down to hide my face which was warm.

He lifts my chin and I could see a mischievous glint in his eyes.

" Do you like to be spanked, Bella. I could smell your arousal. Are you turned on... Hmm "

"You can smell my aro..usal?" I asked shuttering.

"Did you forget Bella we are werewolves?" He asked seductively and nipped my ear lightly

" no " I moan.

"Hmmm. Then what is it? "

Why I liked the thought of him spanking me, definitely something is wrong with me.

"I don't know. I liked the idea of you spanking me. Do you think I have some problem, Ronan? " I confessed lowly

"What?" he said with a chuckle and put me in a tight embrace " No. Love nothing is wrong. You are feeling like this because you found us recently and it's a natural thing to feel. You don't have to be embarrassed about your feeling." He said softly while tucking my hair at my ear.

I gazed at him and saw affection and lust swirling in his eyes but I could not look away. I was fixed at my place and was captive by his eyes.

I don't know how many seconds or minutes I was standing there tucked in his arm.