Chapter 1

Believe and Hope

Life of every one are full of trials,love,pain success, failures. and every individual person can make success even have differents trials in life. Trials sometimes is the way to success but sometimes trials can a be reason to have mentally ill. It can happen if commit suicide. But if we think why we have trials in life

we can be learn how to manage everything.

Admitting what is the problem is easy to solve and find solutions.Anyhow problem is every where as long we are still alive.

The story I'm going to write here are about the success of one mother to her three childrens.We know that there's many family was abandon of their mother or father..Mary was got civil marriage in early age of her.

at age 19 yrs old. knowing she is not a professional in education. she got three beautifuls daughter.

Mary was sacrife from his husband and have a wrost life.Because Mary don't want to say about the situations to her family.she was hide everythings.As a mother she keep quite and handle the family problem and solve by her own.Until she got pregnant to her youngest Mary decide to separate from his husband.why? because she realized her decision to stay was wrong.she realize she can't be always alone to solve the problems that giving his husband.

In the beginning she separate too much hard to her, no money, no good foods to feed to her children's ,no good house, no water, no electricity, even clothes she can count also clothes of children's.Mary are have a very hopeless life, without A help of her family, Mary find a solution how to start a new life. even she pregnant she washing clothes to earn, iron clothes it's her job. and because her bahay Kubo house in the mountain she was afraid that she left her two daughters in age 7 yrs old and 5 yrs old, but she don't have any option to go job.

Before she go to her job,mary prepare foods to her childrens a noodles or soup. and its good for 5 hrs. and she know is not enough but she cannot do anything to add another foods.she was talking to her childrens before she go to work. for the safety of the children's

and glad in everyday Mary at works there's no happened to her childrens. In one week only 3 days Mary have work. in 750 pesos in one week she do her best to make budget what she have.. Rice is the most important to her.

What she have is not enough,and time pass Mary need to birth her youngest.she was alone go to hospital even too much pain she feels thinking her two daughters in her house she decided to birth Alone in the hospital.

she have one good sister who take care two daughters in her house. Mary birth her youngest with tears and sacrife for being alone.and she know she don't have enough money to pay the hospital bill. she was crying alone and decide to suicide but god not allowed her to do that. instead she was remembering her childrens and she remember there's always have a hope. In the morning in the hospital Mary try to talk to the owner of the hospital, glad to say hospital don't pressure her to pay, instead accept what mary amount have. and have a promissory note to pay soon if she have. Mary continue her very very hopeless life.. theres many happened to her just to feed her childrens.and one day she feel so tired.. and give up.. she decide to put a poison into their drinking water and hugging her children's and smile and say we going to drink this and we going to sleep. But before they drink theres have a very cold air passing all over her house,and Mary hand get the glasses and the water and throw outside.and Mary run so long in the mountain and crying... with very very heavy rain Mary stay how many hours in the mountain and it's too dark. and after a hours she back to her little house. and watching the three childrens that time already sleeping very innocent and don't know what is in the water.

Mary was realize and ask sorry and thank you for the very cold air. she change her wet clothes and sleep hugging their childrens. In the morning Mary awake with smile and full of energy, saying to herself everything will be fine... and life of Mary was go on. until she meets some people's from other countries, Mary become a friends, and their friends know her situation in life.

And that day her friends know her situations her friends start to help her. years pass Mary build a little house but safe to their childrens and to her.. she's also got a electricity, have good foods to eat. and some important things they need. her childrens also study in good school.. Mary also go back to study. and now she already graduated a bachelor of public administration. there's have some problems but she already learn and know always believe and hope. she smooth handle everything to her life. and always think and do what is best to her 3children's...

This is the story of my life... full of pain and very worst...

but glad to say thank you for those people's from other countries who sending a help for my childrens.

Thank you and

God bless

Mary