Chapter 12: Memory and Motivation

Harry and Ron had been staring Edwin ever since he saved Harry, they wanted to know why he saved him they came to the decision that wanted to use saving Harry's life so that they would be in debt to him Ron hated the idea of Harry being in-debt to a Slytherin who is also friends with Draco.

" Come on why don't that bastard say what he want," Ron said as he stuff his face with food "Any way you don't owe him anything ... we didn't ask for his help "

"Ron he saved my life I can't just let it go "

" you two should stop staring " Hermione stated

Edwin had grown tired with the staring when he saw Ron staring he flipped him off before heading to class " what was that about " Theodore asked

" something I gotta deal with later "

Edwin arrived at history class the most boring class in Hogwarts, 10 minutes in and most of the class was looking tired Professor Binus the only ghost teacher in Hogwarts. Edwin decided to try Occlumency something he had little talent in, Edwin closed his eyes and tried to clear his mind and focus to keep it clear and calm but random memory kept coming back to Edwin.

Memory of the past Edwin first time fighting, getting bite by a dog thing kept coming back to Edwin his family friends after remembering those thing Edwin dropped his head to the desk " it's been ages since I taught about them... maybe Occlumency is working " Edwin continued trying to clear but more and more remembering the happy time he had and the sad tears began to set in the corners in his eyes.

" Fuck it's working " Edwin mutter as he rubs his eyes tears started to flow out and he tried to focus on the happy memories to stop but he couldn't he remember his old self and tough of all the mistake he made " I hate this " Edwin tried to think of Harry Potter series and just listing all the thing he could recall, "let's see Harry ended up with Ron sis, the room of requirement, Snape's potion book " Edwin list everything he could think of and remember he started to the sad part of the wizarding world the deaths to come." Fred death ... No" Edwin Shout in his mind.

Even though he only knew them for a while they were friends and will become good friends in the future Edwin hoped " wait can't I change the future " Edwin taught to himself " if I could change enough thing maybe he won't die " the last two-person that came to Edwin was Tonks and Lupin even though he didn't know them personally he knew that they were good.

At the end of History class Edwin made a decision he will save them maybe not all of them but who he could and at the same achieve his old dream of having fun, even with being motivate he was still sad walking to his next class with a grim look on his face.

After all of his classes were over Edwin went into the library to study he skim through the books until he saw An introduction to Alchemy in an advance Transfiguration book the more he read the more interested in Alchemy he got.

" it's like Chemistry but with magic " Edwin taught to his self " if I could get my hands on the stone maybe"

" Why did you save Harry? " Hermione asked

" no reason," Edwin said with a smile " do you think I would let a fellow student die "

" I don't believe you," Hermione said" their Has to be something in it for you "

" keep thinking that... later "

Edwin decides to talk to someone who would at least understand some part of what he wanted so he ended up at Snape office and knocked at the door " Professor Snape "

" Come in"

" Mr. Vaclav what can I do for you "

" I need some advice," Edwin said " you ever feel like your making the same mistakes over and over"

" is this about potions or something else, " Snape asked

" I know what I wanna do but can I do it," Edwin said as he regrets making a promise to save People Edwin became sad again as he took a chair and sat down

" you won't know until you try, " Snape said as he tries to make eye contact with Edwin " and what is it that you want to do that got you so down"

" I think I wanna learn Alchemy and do the impossible " Edwin paused " and change what I saw "

" You could Learn Alchemy at Hogwarts and what do you mean saw?" Snape was trying his best to read what Edwin was thinking but he couldn't without casting a spell because of Edwin hiding his eye and avoiding eye contact.

" A dream I saw my self failing "Edwin tried his best to put it in a way not suspicious

" Dreams are nothing but a fantasy that might never happen without work," Snape said, " Are you working to fail ?"

" I am not