Chapter 39

When we finally reached the back, I sat down on a huge stone.

Insects kept flying around my leg making me uncomfortable. I had to keep hitting my leg to drive them off. He was putting on trousers so he didn't really suffer the same fate.

Everywhere was so quiet. There was light today but the light was too dim to actually expose us to prying eyes except the person came with their own torch.

"I missed you." He said Holding me close to him. I wanted to say it back but I couldn't, I didn't want to be usual. He turned my face to him and kissed me deeply and I kissed him back with much more passion. So much ferocity, he moaned in my mouth.

His hands moved from my waist to my Breast. We were both oblivious of the fact that we were outside or maybe we remembered but didn't care. He pulled me on top of him so

My legs were wrapped around his waist.

I wanted to grab his dick to give him a hand job even though I likely did suck at that too. But I was aware that I wouldn't learn if I kept shying away from it just because I was afraid to embarrass myself especially in front of him.

I had to free myself if indeed I wanted to learn how to give him as much pleasure as he was giving to me. I knew this, but still it seemed hard. So hard to finally let go of my self control. It had been the only thing I've had since I could remember. The only thing differentiating me from others.

"Hold me." He whispered in my lips. He started opening his pant zipper and for some unknown reason I became so scared, I froze.

I stopped kissing him, stopped touching him. I got up from his thighs. He looked at me perplexed while I swallowed. I didn't know why I stopped, why I was afraid. This wasn't my first time giving a hand job. I didn't know why I was losing my self esteem totally when. it came to giving pleasure. Or why my trust in myself seemed faded.

I guess I just felt so inexperienced when it came to him.

"What's the problem." He asked removing his glasses. His huge eyes stared back at me searching for Answers, I didn't know myself.

"I'm too restricted. Too controlled too scared to let go. Too scared." I confessed looking down at my hands. He raised up my head and smiled

"Now I should also confess, that's the cutest thing about you. You are like a domain, a site for storing classified information. And in other to protect this, you backed up the domain with firewalls. A lot of firewalls. But you know the best thing about firewalls, no matter how protected and secured they are, it can still be hacked. The you is the domain. The ocean is the firewall. It will dry up with the right amount of energy and attention

" The ocean symbolises that I'm weigh too deep, heart deep. I just hope the firewall doesn't burn you before you get through it. " I sighed sitting down. I hugging him, burying my head in his shoulders.

"Let it burn me. I will be in fire and love the smell of my skin burning in flames remember? I love you so much."

I pulled away from the embrace and kissed him again and then I held him like he wanted. It wasn't a hand job per se I just held his dick while I enjoyed feeling its warmth in my hands. I moved up and down slowly, slowly.

He moaned a bit before I stopped.

"Common!" He pouted.

I laughed pulling my hand away. "I need to go " I announced as I stood up.