Chapter Nine - My ex douche bag.

*I sincerely apologise, I am currently revising the book, so that's the reason for the random jump*

"Fiancee?" James questions me.

I swallow whatever is in my moth before beginning to speak.

"I-I was going to tell you... I was be-" but I was cut off by his voice.

"When, Ana? When!? When were you going to tell me about this fiancee... When?" He whispers out the last word of the sentence. I cannot help but feel a lump form in my throat.

"Why did you lie to me?" he asks me.

This question causes my heart to break into a million pieces. I did not want to lie to him. I never wanted it to end up like a lie.

I shake my head.

"I didn't lie..." I tell him.

"Oh yeah? Then why did you tell me that you were never in a relationship? Why did you tell that you never fell in love with anyone before?... It is lying and you know it...".

I have never seen him this frustrated, it is scaring me. What if I ruined us?... Why didn't I just tell him?

"... I didn't want to lie to you... believe me...".

"But you still did it anyway..." he says, shaking his head.

"Why? Why did you lie to me?" He asks me, looking both desperate to know the answer but also extremely annoyed.

I bit my lip as I can feel my eyes tearing up.

"I didn't want to tell you about him..." I reply, trying so hard to keep back the tears, but one manages to leak out and slowly roll down my face.

"Why?" he asks me, I can hear his voice become more smooth. He takes slow steps towards me.

"Tell me why? Why didn't you want me to know about him?" He asks me, gently placing his two hands on my shoulders.

That was what broke the barrier, I could not keep in the tears anymore.

I begin sobbing.

"Because I didn't want you thinking that I was a failure...".

He sits me down on the sofa.

"Why would you think that Ana?" he asks me softly as he swipes a few strands of hair off my left cheek.

"Tell me?" he gently whispers to me.

I manage to slightly calm down before I proceed on answering his question.

"I broke off the relationship... I was so close to marrying the man and then..." I begin explaining.

"And why would you think that I, a person who is DESPERATE to find a love of my life, would think that a beautiful girl, like you, would be a failure?" James asks me, I can see him slightly smiling at me causing me to smile a bit too.

"I was scared... I don't want you to know that I broke up with someone...".

"Why would be scared of telling me that?".

"Because I didn't know if you would want me..." I tell him. My words cause my heart to ache as more tears flow down my face.

"Because you broke up with someone?..." he asks me.

I look at him before nodding.

"So tell me, do you still want me even though I have an ex?... That I told you about..." he asks me.

I look at him. Did he just really ask me that?

"Of course I want you..." I reply.

"Do you want me?" I ask him back.

"Yes... yes I want you, I want you more than I want me... That is how much I want you," he replies, but I see him moving closer to me.

"I want you so much that I want to fuck you. I want you, is that understood?" he whispers to me, causing my tears to instantaneously drawback.

I nod, looking into his eyes.

"I am sorry, James..." I tell him.

I can see him slightly grin before he pulls me in for a hug.

"But please don't do that the next time, I want you to be honest with me and I will be honest with you..." he whispers to me while we are still in our tight embrace.

"I am sorry for freaking out on you..." he adds after a few moments.

We part from our hug after a minute.

"Can you tell me, why would you think that I would see you as a failure?... Who told you that I would see you as a failure?" he asks me.

I look at him.

"My ex would always tell me how bad I am and how I would be nothing without him. He would then call me a failure and if anyone else was to take an interest in me or begin dating me, they would give up on me when they find out that I am a failure." I tell him, but he shakes his head in response.

"How could you be a failure?" he asks me.

I just shrug. I can feel more tears build up in my eyes.

"Her ex was a total douche..." I can hear Andrea add from my right side. I forgot that she was even here!

"What happened so you broke off the engagement? If you don't mind me asking." James asks me.

I look up at the wall across from where James, Andrea and I are sitting on my white sofa.

"I..." I begin but I clear my throat before continuing.

"I caught him... cheat on me... It was also on the night of our anniversary... One year anniversary." I tell them. I still hurts me to think back, but I am so thankful it did because I am now no longer with him. I no longer have to see him.

"It happened three years ago, in a few weeks it will be four." I add, before looking down at the floor.

"On your anniversary?".

I just nod.

"I am sorry that happened to you, but I will reassure you that I will treat ypu better than him.".

I look at him, confused.

"But you don't even know him...".

He smiles at my words.

"I dont even have to, all I needed was to hear that he cheated on you... because both you and I know that I would never do that to you..." he whispers the last part into my ear and I can feel is hand travelling down towards my hip. His lips gently begin smootching my cheek as I can feel him move my hair out of his way.

"Guy, you know I am still right here!?" Andrea exclaims, moving over and away from us two.

He stops assaulting my cheek with his lips, but before he scootched away from me, she gives my lips a gentle kiss.

"You guys should really find a room and sex eachother all night... You will feel better after it... BELIEVE ME..." Andrea tells us as I can see the slight disgust in her eyes.

I just laugh it off before standing up.

"Who wanted beer?".