Lies and Deceit

Francesca opened her eyes and saw the most beautiful man she had ever seen.

Seeing her awake, Alex sighed in relief. "How are you? Do you feel any pain?".

Francesca smiled at Alex. This brought pleasant memories to her. It was like they returned to their early life. Whenever she had gotten sick while they were dating, Alex would always have this worried face.

She shakes her head. "What are you doing here?"

"Did you forgot that I'm still your husband? Even though I'm divorcing you, does it mean that I no longer care for you? Do you think I'm really that shallow of a person?!

Francesca, ending one's life is not the easy way out. You sacrificed a lot of things to stand where you are right now. When did your father ever acknowledge you? He is only using you. I have told you that before yet you won't listen!" Alex was extremely furious. He hated that she wanted to take her life because of this silly reason! Where was his feisty wife that always fought with him? Didn't she wanted to stand so high, making her and his family look like fools in her eyes?

Francesca cried. For the sake of attracting his attention, she decided to cut her wrist. She deliberately sold all of her blood reserves, so that he would come. Now that he came to save her, she couldn't accept his words.

Her tears were real. If there was one who she was scared to lose, it would be her husband. "I did all of these not only because of him, but it's also because of you! Your parents don't put me in their eyes! I wanted to show them that I am worthy to stand beside you! I.. I just wanted to become someone that you would be proud of."

It was the first time that Alex heard these words. Instead of feeling sorry, he felt more uncomfortable and furious. "You wanted me to be proud of you? I have always been proud of you! I have always known how worthy you are! I married you because I always believed in you!

Francesca, does that mean that you threw our marriage away because of this? Does that mean that you never truly saw my feelings for you? Does that mean that all this time, you didn't understand me?

If you say it like this, then I want to feel sorry for you. But for some reason, I can't bring myself to even do that! You neglected me! You neglected your duties as my wife!

I'm a human being like any other person. Sky was an accident, but falling in love with April is not. She gave me the kind of love that you weren't willing to give. You are selfish and unkind. I gave you all my heart and even threw my family aside. All because of you! Because you wanted to prove your worth?

Ha! All these years, I thought that I was lacking. I thought that you were getting cold to me because I kept pushing you about having a child or that because you were unhappy with me. I kept blaming myself whenever we fought. Even this divorce, I still blame myself! I blame myself for my fickle heart!

Francesca, tell me. What happened to us? I loved you with all of my heart. You were the most important person in my life. I tried to heal all your wounds, but I can't heal someone who isn't willing to be healed!

Tell me, what am I in your eyes? Did you really just used me for your gains?! Did you ever really loved me?! Cause if you loved me, WE WOULDN'T HAVE TO REACH THIS STATE!!!"

Alex hid the pain on his eyes, he covered his eyes with his hand. His heart was aching so bad. Is it wrong to love and be loved? Is it wrong to be happy?

All he wanted to do was feel like he too was worthy to become someone's husband or lover. He has a need too. A need to feel that he had a purpose in this life! Was it really that hard to love him?

He put his hand down and looked at his wife. His beautiful wife that he had loved for half of his life. "Am I really that hard to love? For you to neglect me to this state?." He asked her. Asking this wasn't easy. His chest felt like it was about to explode. It felt like it was constantly being stabbed by her gaze.

He didn't want to accuse her nor blame her. He was willing to take all the blame for their divorce. But seeing her wanting to take her life like this, it brought out the pain that he was enduring all these years. It brought out all the happy and sad memories in their life as husband and wife.