Part One Me

Earth is very wide, but if compare to my love it's very small. Compare to your life it's nothing at all. Just a small drop of dust in the wind. Can my love even reach you? How I wish it could.

How I wish I could say these words to you face to face, but I can't. I know you don't see me that way. How can you, we've known each other all of our life. You just see me as nothing more than a childhood friend. A young sibling at best but I see you as more than that.

I have gather up all my courage so many times I've actually lost count of them all. "I love you" I've always want to say these words to you. But every time I want to say it. I always see you with a different person every time.

How many times has my heart been broken when I see you kissing someone else's lips. How many times have I bitten my own tongue. Just trying to keep my own words from leaving my lips. How many times haven't you seen me crying out. Always asking me 'what's wrong?' and I always say I'm fine. I can't help but laugh at how far I've fallen just to get your love even if it's that of a sibling.

I always love the face you make for me when I'm down. It's the face a lover makes when the one they love is out of their reach. Just outside of arms length. I love this feeling and at the same time I hate it. After all the face you are making is not of a lover, not even close. I know this face know it too well actually. It's the face an older sibling makes when their younger sibling is no longer in their sight. A lost child that's what I am to you.

But I won't give up. I've loved you for so many years theirs no way I'm going to stop now. I will love you for the rest of my life even if it's a secret to death. My feelings will never change.

I loved you ten years ago. I love you now and I will love you and still love you till my last breath in many years to come. And just like the sun you are my light.