Stone Cold

The society around is a bad bitch. It seems to be giving you everything, but never let you take it.The moment you stop bothering about it, it takes you down.It always points its accusatory finger at those who suffer.Each and every person is suffering from one or the other problem which appears simple to us until we undergo that suffering.

One is suffering from cancer while the other is suffering from hairfall.One is suffering from chronic hunger while the other is worrying about delay in the pizza delivery.One is worried about finding a job while the other is worried about not being in the right job. Any problem doesn't seem to be a problem until the society points at it. It either supports or brutally oppose a person.When a person decides to commit suicide , it doesn't mean that he doesn't have courage to live and fight back ,it means that he has lost many times fighting back and reached a saturation point where he can't even think of fighting back. Depression is a major cause of suicidal tendency.Can you imagine a 7 year old girl going through depression?

I come from a family where both my parents leave for work as soon as i wakeup. It's not that they dont love me, they were just busy in earning for the betterment of my future.They used to provide me everything within seconds but little did they know that i Only wanted their Love. I have gone through many hurdles at a very young age. Bullying me had been a great fun for a bunch of girls then, one day when i couldn't tolerate it anymore i decided to tell on them to my parents and the same day i overheard a bizarre truth that i am an adopted child. That was the first time i felt depressed and then so many times later on.

A person might be Good but that person being at the wrong time in your life makes that person your worst nightmare.Henry is my worst nightmare. He knew everything about me and my depression issues and still he loved me or i thought he did.We broke up a year ago and still his memories haunt me every day. Henry and I had been together for 4 years and he broke up with me on the last day of college. That was one awful period of my life where i had to go through depression, betrayal, backstabbing and fight my suicidal thoughts.That time gave me a lot of scars.Soon after the breakup, I got admitted in Depression Rehab.Claire was just a random friend back then. A real friend is the one who walks in when rest of the world walks out. Claire is the only one who stood by me then.Who knew that in this world where a person in the mask of a best friend can backstab the other ,there is also a person who would put soul in helping a random friend.Before getting admitted in the rehab my situation was awful. I used to cut myself not with the intention to die but to hurt myself and instigate physical pain to deviate from emotional pain. I made numerous calls and messages to him but he didn't care to reply even once and blocked my number. I dont know how a person could be such stone cold. "i don't need you anymore" are the last words he told me. If i close my eyes all i could think of is what they meant.Inspite of knowing that he blocked, i used to call him again and again hoping at least once my number could have been unblocked. I just wanted to know whether he really loved me. I used to stay awake all night crying and writhing in pain. I forgot who i am, all i knew was pain which only i can feel that was squeezing my heart.

I got admitted in the Rehab when i stabbed myself just to relish in the physical pain. That pain was necessary for me to overcome mental pain. I seemed to do better in the first few days of rehab but sometimes i used to call Henry borrowing phone from some random person in the rehab. He would cut the call as soon as he knew its me without any regret.

I have been or in my defence,i had been having hallucinations then.One day in the rehab, when i was closing my eyes and thinking about how stone cold Henry is, someone opened the door and i heard the footsteps approaching me.I didnt care to see who that was. After sometime,when i opened my eyes, i saw a person walking out of the door. I thought he must be Henry, so i called his name loud but he didn't turn back. I followed him calling his name till he

went into the woods hoping that he would turn back.But then some rehab staff saw me and got me back.Dr.Ericson who is a psychologist tried to convince me that it is just my hallucination and Henry has no intention to care for me.I felt shattered and i want to ask Henry one thing, "did he really love me? " and i want "No" as the answer.After many weeks of medication and painful processes,they declared that i recovered.Then Claire and I along with some of our friends started the event management company. As rehab is in the outskirts of the city, Eric helped me to get a home a little away from the city near to the rehab. I live alone there. Sometimes Claire also stays there when i am very low otherwise she lives with her parents in the city. I got myself very much involved in the work and got out of depression.But never thought i could get hallucinations again. Deciding not to think anything anymore, i took the sleeping pills and slept all day.

The nextday i woke up,got ready and went to meet Eric. He is very kind and adorable.He treats me like his own kid. As soon as he saw me he greeted me and said, "are you alright Jenny"

I said, "not really, i think i am having hallucinations again and the worst part is they seem so real"

Erik said, "that's bad, if you ever see such things again just tell yourself, say it aloud that This Is Not Real"

He went on with his speech and the session went on for a while. Finally when its all over i started to home. While i was on half the way reaching home,i got a call from Claire.

"where are you? I am waiting for you at your place",she said.

"oh! I will be there soon",i said

"hurry!!! ",she hang up the phone saying that.

I reached home within no time. As soon as she saw me she said, "we need to talk!! "

We went inside.She got a newspaper along with her i wondered why.

"whats the matter? ",i asked her.

"read it!! ",she said pointing out to some news in the newspaper.

I got shocked after reading it. It said that 6 men went missing.

"did you see they were driving the convertible itseems",she said.

"yeah!!which means that i am not hallucinating and all that happened for real" i said anxiously.

"and i have to ask you one more thing,where is your old phone, is that here at home? ",she asked.

"what!!! Of course not!!, i told you that i left it in the old man' car who drove me home the other day",i said.

"but at first i called your old number by mistake and heard the ring tone from the house",she said surprised.

"what!! ",i yelled, "call again!!! fast!! "

When she called we both got struck to see the phone on the table and there is also a note below the phone which said,"i know everything that happened, dont go to the cops and trust me i will get you out of the trouble, lets meet today"

"what the hell!! how did that person get into your house and leave the note",Claire said angrily.

I am completely out of my mind now. Eric told me to say myself that it is not real if something unusual happens.I did so and asked Claire calmly ,"Claire do you also see the note"

She said, "of course i do!! you are not hallucinating, i am really sorry for not trusting you. Something is happening and we have to find out"

I never felt so happy for the fact that i am not hallucinating.

"lets go to the cops and tell them everything that happened ",i said.

"yeah and also about the note and the person who left it here",she said.

"hey what about Mr. Steven' project.How far did it come. ", I asked her.

"ugh!!! there is a lot to do,i was working on it but as soon as i heard the news i rushed to you",she said.

"oh! then we can do something.I will call Eric and tell everything that's happened meanwhile you go and assign the work to someone else and when i get there we both can go to the cops",i said.

She agreed and left to the office.

I wanted some alone time. There is a place nearby which nobody knows. I used to go there whenever i feel i need some space for myself from the rest of the world. It is on the way to the rehab, far away from the city and a little inside the woods surrounded by trees all around.I feel that those trees speak to me,listen to me, understand me.So i went there and screamed aloud in happiness.It feels so happy to be a normal person, when people don't make weird faces at me and stare at me. I jumped in happiness all around. When i got tired i sat on a big rock over there where i usually sit when i come here. Then i thought i should call Eric and tell what happened.I took my bag to take out my phone and i came across that note. I took it out and read those lines once again and wondered what Lets Meet Today means when he hasn't mentioned the place.

"Jennie... ",i heard a voice from behind.

I got scared and lost the courage to see who is behind.I know very well that no one knew this place and even if they do, no one would care to come here. I closed my eyes tight.

"hey its ok, look at me",he said.

I told myself that its not real and i convinced myself that i am not listening his voice.I turned back hoping to see no one there. But when i opened my eyes i saw a man in a black tshirt,a leather jacket of unusual cut and a black jeans. His hair is dark and wavy. Amongst his black attire, he has a bright lit face with his eyes staring at me. I touched him to make sure he is real.

He smiled and said, "Let go Jennie,am real, trust yourself sometimes "

He is speaking to me as though he knew me from a very long time.

It took my hand and asked, "who gave you that one? ",pointing to the ring of my index finger.

"its a purity ring gave by my parents and who are you? are you the one who left that note?, "i asked him.

"technically yes,are you sure that your parents gave you that ring? Do you remember when they gave you? ",he asked.

"No, i dont.All i remember is that they gave it to me and i dont need to answer your questions ",i said walking away from him.

"but you are already answering ",he said smiling.

"well!! I wont anymore. I need to go",i said .

"You want to go because you cant resist falling for me anymore",he said with a smirk.

I got angry. I turned towards him and said angrily "who do you think you are!! "

He stepped closer to me and asked, "you exactly knew that your parents didn't give you that ring but all that you know is you have to keep it always",he said on a serious note.

That is true but how did he know that. "who are you? ",i asked.

"dont go to the cops. We can solve this together.Trust me",he said.

"No, what makes you think that i will trust you",i said.

"You will because you like me already ",he said with a smirk on his face again.

I didnt like it. I hate the way he says it. "now i will go straight away to the cops",i said.

He stopped me and said, "i was just kidding!! "

"i am going to the cops anyway",i said in anguish .

"You wont!! Btw i am Jake. I am sure you will remember me.",he said.

I dont want to go to the cops but i dont like to hear it from him.I wanted to know how he knew everything about me.