My empty heart..

~Feeya POV~

After my accident, I can feel that in my heart there's an empty space in it. But, I didn't know what is it. I keep on dreaming a figure of a tall man in my unconscious mind. Sometime I feel myself want to cry without even know what is it. What's it that make me feel so sad. Sometime I can hear a voice "I love you with all my heart and soul. Please be safe for me." It's been playing in my unconscious mind. "What's this feeling that I have? Have I been someone else body before this? Is it possible that I've been reborn like in many novel I've read? Hahaha.. stupid me.. I think I've read to much novel.." I thought in my mind.

I'm awake from my day dreaming mind when my phone ringing non-stop. It's now nearing the 4th year of that accident. "Hello." I pick up my phone without even look to the caller Id. "Hello Feeya, It's me. Can we meet and have a dinner together?" Richard voice sounded at the end of the speaker phone. "Okay, see you at dinner." I just simply give him an agreement. I don't know why, I've been with him for nearly 4 years now. But i still feel my heart on guard toward him. I've accept his engagement proposal last few month. Still my heart cannot feel anything that pull me to really accept him. There's a figure that I can't find in him. Am I truly in love with or not? This is the question that always been played in my mind several time. Please God, help me to figure out what has happen too me. I can feel a tears flowing down on my cheek.

Richard come to pick me up and he drove us to a his favorite restaurant. I can feel that my heart hurt a little bit, because in our years been together he never ask me what my favorite food. I always just ignore this feeling, I only thought that, maybe after we've married than he will more concern about me. After Dinner, he told me that he want to fulfill our promise, he want to get married to me on our 4th years anniversary. I just agreed to him as always. I don't even know what I'm thinking. I just want to follow my heart.

The day of our wedding finally approached. That's when it's finally hit my head and heart.

That night I dream that I've been standing in a garden that's really beautiful. There's a figure of tall man kneeling in front of me and ask me to be his fiance. I had agreed to him. When we went out of the restaurant, I forgot my purse, he told me that he will help me to take it. He ask me to go to the car first, that's when it happen. I hear a screeching sound of Tyre near by, in a brim of second I'm in the warm hug body who tightly wrap around my body. He is trying to push us away from being knock but it's just a little bit too late. We've been knock out together and flying over to the other side where we've been hit by another car from the other side. Before we've fell unconscious, In my eyes I saw a deep black eyes staring straight into me and than I heard a familiar voice, "I love you with all my heart and soul. Please be safe for me." he said. That's all it take me to woke up from my dream and I cried so much for the dream. 'Is it because of this dream that have make my heart feel so empty??' I thought in my mind still in my crying state. Than I hear a knock,"Little Feefee, wake up. You need to be ready for your wedding, remember."my father's voice awoke me from my crying. That's right I'm about to be a bride. I can't shed my tears over this.

We finally arrive at the wedding venue. I am now so nervous. After today, I will be a wife to someone and will be living separately from my big brother and beloved father. I am going to start a new life of my own. With all eyes are focus on her now because now Feeya is the most beautiful and pretties bride they have ever seen. She's now walk down the aisle beside her father with sweet smile on her lips when she suddenly feel so anxious when she look to the front and she found that the groom is seated on the wheelchair. In her mind and heart started to ask so many question... 'Why is Richard seated on a wheelchair? What has happen to him? OMG... Is he got involve in accident when he's coming here?' she so worried about him...

When she come nearer to the groom, she was startle and shocked written whole over her face.. "Who are you?? Where's my groom??" with so many question that she can't voice out.

On the other side, the handicap groom still in daze and shock to look at the most beautiful and prettiest bride, he only snap from his daze within a second to answer her "I'm Daniel Stephan.. and I am your groom the second I check.. You are my most beautiful and prettiest bride for today..." with his most charming smile. Why is his voice sound so familiar.

"Can you please not making a scene for now. You don't need to be nervous and anxious. I'll explain later after the wedding end. Okey?" he says in slow voice and ghost smile appear on his face. "How am I not anxious when my original groom is nowhere to be seen and how I'm gonna marry with someone I just know today? I'm not someone that stupid enough to marry someone I don't even know the background and personality." I says and glare to him. "Your original groom left a note for you, but you have to promise me to smile all the time when you read it, if not, than I will never give the note to you." he says. "Okay, promise." I say with a force smile. "I want a sincere smile" he say. I breath in before i gave him my most sincere smile. He handed me the note and I read it still trying to maintain the smile on my face.

I can feel that my eyes brimming with tears when I read the note with his handwritten it's says "I'm sorry Feeya. I can't continue with the wedding. I have other important task that I need to settle. I'm wishing you the most happy marriage. I know that you will the most beautiful and prettiest bride. again, I'm very sorry... Your Ex-Fiance.. Richard.." "How could he just broke our engagement with this simple note. How am I going to marry this man with sincere smiling face when I just received this broke up note. Am I not human to them. Richard.. how can you be so cruel to me." I am about to turn and just run away. But, I can't, I can imagine my brother and father happiness face will broke down to sadness if I really runaway. No, I can't brake their heart. I need to find my own happiness. I need to cross this bridge of marriage with this man. I turn to look at this groom or my future husband face. I can see the sincere smile on his lips. He seem so familiar to me. I only need to confirm something from him now.

"I need to confirm something from you and you need to answer my question before we continue the wedding." I says. " What is it?" he say.

I look into his familiar black deep eyes and say "Are you really sincere and accept me for me even if I'm not as perfectly and honorably as your imaginary wife?"... "I'll accept you with all my heart and be the most happiest groom in this whole world. You are perfectly as you are." he claimed. "Thank you. Let's continue our wedding." I say and thinking at the same time, why is his voice sound very familiar especially the look in his eyes.