chapter 5

Why did that feel so nice to get out. Don't know I have to go. Bye-bye hope they all left. Huh, phone calls AARON OMG HOW THE HELL DO I FORGET.

''AARON''

''WHAT THE HELL ARE YOU UP TO WHERE ARE YOU HAD ME SO WORRIED ABOUT YOU LIKE WHAT THE FUCK DUDE''

''I'm sorry'' I say with a little quaver in my voice.

'' I'm sorry I did not mean to go off like that you scared me''

''no, no it's fine I did run off without telling you I'm in front of the door bye-bye''

The moment I walked in beer on the table. He ran over to me and started crying I don't blame him I must have scared him that bad.

''go to bed''

''I don't want you to run off''

'' I wouldn't I promise you that.''

''ok I'm tried take me to bed.''

''yes''

''good night Aaron ''

He already asleep nothing much more than that 5 kills in a night wow. I guess my thoughts are all messed up with all that's going on. With Jenna coming into my thoughts. What will happen now she'll be so sad maybe not, but I am, there something you can never take back that you want. my father how much easier it would be to have someone around to help you, either way, there's nothing I can't do now even if I hurt myself I don't want to become a monster that I am scared of but that will most likely happen no matter what then my being the only child I will become the dark lord. I know it will happen soon when the time comes, I will go crazy that means that it's my time to be the dark lord. Why do I worry so much about this? I can never sleep at night at all I should. So I can explain everything to Aaron he's like my brother to me and I guess I have to go with him for dinner with his family I'm not complaining I'm just more frightened by them that it and I don't know why is it because the way I see thing yeah that's it. No matter what hide just hide it so no one can make fun of you for it at all yeah, I'm worrying way too much. Just get some sleep and you'll be fine yeah. Whatever good night.

Its morning all ready wow I feel good huh he already up making breakfast wow it smells good and the apartment is all clean wonder what time he got up at and I'm helpless getting in the way of thing I'm so stupid what the hell can I do when I'm just a killer that all I am no matter what I'm so stupid why just why was he worried about me yesterday I can't do anything to make him happy or anyone else no matter what. I want to die in a whole or read that all I want to do yeah all I want to do no matter what kill after kill nothing will get better from here don't tell him at all. I can't help but cry.

Aaron thoughts when he wakes up:

What the hell happened to me god my head hurts. Huh oh, Karson where the omg good thing he' here but why on the couch? Whatever I should clean up and make food.

1 hour later

Huh oh he's up why what wrong but why do I stop my self though why whatever

''good morning Krson''

''mmm-mm''

Food is really good but that nothing new though.