Nicholas's POV
Taking her advice, next day I came home at the dinner time. All of them shocked because I always come late and after long time we are going to eat together. They all are happy. So I started came home early because I love to see them eating talking smiling together.
Because of her I got know more about my siblings. I keep all their new but after spending time with them I got to know more them and they are doing great in their life. My sister wants to be an actress and my brother , I know very well what is he doing.
My mother was praised her and my grandma like always at the dinner time asked me when will she be great grandma.
At one night I don't know why but I said to her that she's not wrong but different from me. And she immediately asked me in which way. I wanted to tell her everything but not know and told her to sleep.
2 week passed already and my life was perfect because of her. I started to open up with her but she's the one who talks more and I like to hear her sweet voice. She always had stories to telling me and I listened to them with all of my interest. Everything was good.
Then one day she asked me to go out with her when I was preparing to leave for office. I stopped in mid way and thought to myself that she's right. We didn't go out even once after our marriage and I never asked her so I asked her where does she want to go. she said that she tell me at the evening so I left after this.
When I came home I was walking to go inside but stopped and turned towards the garden area. She was standing there. I went to her. She was looking beautiful. I didn't say anything then she said let's go inside and have dinner. I thought that she wanted to go out for a dinner so I asked her that she wanted to go out but she only said that have dinner first so we ate dinner with everyone and after that we left.
I was driving because I don't want anyone right now in between so I told my driver to go home. I wanted to spend some time with her alone. I don't know where does she want to go so I asked her she said that she wanted to go some uncrowded place. Its night time and wherever we go its crowded so I said let's go for a long drive and she agreed to this.
We were silent the whole drive but suddenly she said to stop the car. Its the beach and there was only few people so I stopped the car at the side. We came out of the car and started to walk side by side.
I wanted to hold her hand but didn't find courage. This whole thing was new for me. I never feel nervous with but when I was with her I don't know what to do. We were walking like that and she was looking at the ocean and said its beautiful but I was looking at her and said yeah its beautiful. She stopped walking and faced me. We just staring at each other. Her face was covered with her hair because of the wind so I removed them and held her face.
She was blushing and closed her eyes. I know what she was expecting. I also wanted to kiss her but I was afraid that I might hurt her. I don't want to hurt her because of my past...what if I loose my control and hurt her in any way. I will never forgive myself. she was so delicate that I don't want to hurt her. I wanted our first time memorable.
So I kissed her on the head and hugged her tightly she was soft and perfectly fit in my arms. I buried my face in her hair. I loved her smell . It was not from any perfume or soap its her natural smell and its refreshing. It was my first time hugging her and smelling her and I loved it.
I have to control my demon and when the right time will come I have to because I don't want to hurt her . I wanted to have her... only for me.....mine alone.....mine.