151. I Can't Control Myself

she takes deep breath and smiled playfully at him and said -" I must say you know me very perfectly Henry. I like this type of men ...at least they show what they want. I like straight forward people. Now please excuse me I need to leave .....well you know already I have very important appointment for tonight so I don't want to be late..." saying this she went inside and locked the door of the changing room.

she looked at herself in the mirror her tears flowing down uncontrollably. she started laughing at herself. she said -" The one I love... hates me."

" and the one I hate the most.... likes me no likes my body."

she wiped her tears and said -" I don't care anymore whether I like his touch or not... I will definitely do it with him tonight..... I don't want to live as virgin to the rest of my life...."

she sobbed and said again -" I also want to feel special for someone.... I loose my virginity tonight ...I'll do it with him."

she changed her clothes and leave from there. There's still some time for her to meet with Ricky. she spend her time in her room and cry her heart out. she feels exhausted and fall asleep."

she wakes up after 2 or 3 hours and took hot bath. she use rose essence in her bath water. she feels relax after taking hot bath. she looks at her reflection and sighed. Her eyes were red and swollen because of crying.

First she goes to her closet room and looked at her designer clothes..... what should I wear... she said -" He likes my body so I should wear some revealing dress." when she said this she feels heavy lump in her throat.

she chooses black gown and its really revealing. Its a backless gown and there's a slit which starts from her upper thigh. she's looking seductress in the gown.

Then she applied makeup. she used concealer to cover her swollen eyes. she wore diamond earrings and bracelet in jewellery. she straightened her hair and let them loose freely. she choose silver high heels.

she looked at herself in the mirror. she feels nervous after all it will be her first time to get physical with someone. .....its just one night stand Kim....

she took her clutch and phone then leave. she already received his msg when she was sleeping. she booked a cab for her because she don't want to drive.

cab dropped her in front of the hotel. Its a five star hotel. she entered inside and directly take elevator. He send her his room no..she's standing in front of his room. she takes deep breaths....calm down Kim.... then she knocks on the door.

Ricky opened the door and whistle to see her. He said -" hey sexy." and hugged her tightly and stroke his hand on her bare back.

she stiffened from his touch. she feels uncomfortable. she said -" let's go inside first."

" oh .....I feel so excited to see you... come inside."

He locked the door then pressed her against it and tried to kiss her. she turned her face and covered his lips with her hand and said -" le.... let me get comfortable...."

" I am sorry.... I can't control myself... you want some drink."

" Yeah..."... I really need it right now...