17. It turns out he is crying

"I remember myself running at some large garden, the garden is really magical, and larger than this one, the servants are standing at the side, and a little girl is playing with me, I think she is 7-8 years old child while I am 13-14 years old. We are very happy, she calls me brother but then, her face is blurred, when I look more closely at her, the scene would change from her smiling face to the one she is bleeding, she is screaming, her small body had bruises, I can't do a thing to save her, she was.." Ushi is still not finished speaking when Xinghe used his hands to wipe his face.

Ushie is stunned until something wet got into his face from his eyes.

It turns out he is crying.

"Master, you know, I'm really hoping you will remember your memories, It might be hurtful that's why you doesn't want to remember it but it is part of what you are, you won't be complete without that." Xinghe smiled gently at him.

"Yeah, you have a point but my mind is not cooperating with me" Ushi continued, "Let's go, it's getting colder here"

The next morning, the three did their tasks, Ushi and Liwei need to practice their combat skills while Xinghe is the only one who was left in their study room.

She can't sleep last night because of his words that rang repeatedly at her mind, the piece of scene the he told her is really heartbreaking enough for her, maybe that is why he doesn't want to remember it, but looking through he seems really struggling, she feels like Ushi is a quiet person because he doesn't know what to act or how to respond to people. She feels like maybe Ushi felt like he is just an empty shell with no soul.

But distracting herself is the best medicine for her mind. She can't meddle with other's business affairs especially if it is Ushi.

Ushi is a gentle person to her, he always smile and always help her through her hard times, he is the one that help Xinghe get better from her Grandmother's death back then, and it is really a sensitive topic for Ushi about his amnesia, last night is the first time he said something about his situation that is why Xinghe doesn't want to meddle with this certain situation of Ushi because of the sensitive topic itself, one wrong move and Ushi might explode, unless he wants her to help him.

Burying herself to the mission, but trouble won't let you go unless you want it yourself.

Looking through Liao family background, Xinghe saw an article about the riches of Liao family but there is one comment that gets her attention, the comment is that the Liao family is the no. 1 family in Shenbei because they eradicated their family friend, Xi family. Xinghe is shocked!

Who is Xi family?

Searching through the internet she found none, the word eradicated really got her attention, Ushi accidentally said that his family is eradicated..

Is it possible Ushi is a member of Xi family? But Uncle Yu said Ushi's family name is Xia, she look through it, there is many Xia family in whole china but none of them experience eradication, and most of them didn't really have much wealth like the Yus because Ushi said last time that in his dreams, their garden is magical and much better than the Yu family garden which means his family can be compared to Yu family.