⚜️ Highschool Memories Pt.1-2 ⚜️

Until now I had never thought of falling in love, leave alone being gay. I had dated a girl back in high school but sadly I didn't understand the feeling love. i had thought if i could date a girl who proposed to me, maybe I would love her back, or maybe at least understand it.

Sadly all that relationship brought was misunderstanding and me not believing in love even more. The girl I dated was 'Seo-hyeon'.

She was pretty, at least that was what my friends said.I didn't find her that attractive though.

I still remember it was just before the sophomore year of our high-school's summer vacation. She had slipped a letter inside my desk, it wasn't exactly a letter it was more like a note. She asked for me to meet her in the basketball.

That was the day I made a big mistake but it was also the day when I met 'Choi Jihun', my best friend during high school and the only person who believed me.

I went to the basketball court, she wore makeup and I'm telling you she looked like a matryoshka doll.

"Hey, sorry for calling out to you so suddenly"

"Nah, it's cool what's up?"

"I have been watching you for a while"

*stalker?*

"So, I wanted to tell you that i really like you, and I would like you to go out with you if that was okay with you"

"You know I have never dated in my life, and I don't understand like and love, I might not reciprocate the same as your feelings, so you still want to go out with me?"

*scratching my head*

"Yes please, I really really like you and want you to be your girlfriend i would do anything you want me to, and i will try my best to make you fall for me"

"Ok, then what do you do when your in a relationship?"

*she at first was confused and then she blushed as she said*

"You know....the stuff couples do"

*???*

W ith a blank face I said ok to her

She left the basketball court as she happily trotted up and down while humming a happy tune and giggling in intervals to herself. i found this really really weird.

*suppressed laughter*

*hahahahaha*

"Who's there?"

"Seriously dude...hehehe...what do couples do?"

"Yeah, cause i don't know, I have never been in one and my friends are single too, well we are an odd bunch after all"

"You kidding me bro, you're the most famous sophomore group in the highschool"

"Yeah, must be because of the oddness"

"Nah, it's because of you the most handsome boy in the sophomore year"

"Yeah right as if"

"Lol, anyways do you wanna know what you do in a relationships?"

"Hmm, maybe I could take some advice"

"I'm Choi Jihun by the way, a sophomore just like you"

"Oh, I see your Jihun the playboy huh?"

"Lol yeah, you know me?"

"Isn't it obvious, your famous as well"

*laughing together*

....

Time skip four months:

Everything had been going great until her 16th birthday. All she had to do was speak those two words. She had a special request for that day, her birthday i mean. She told she didn't want to stay a virgin anymore and she wanted me to take it. I knew that I didn't love her, and was not yet ready take the step towards adulthood. I told her no, but she was too stubborn to listen.

"I have never asked for anything, not even once even though I really wanted it, this is the only thing I want and you won't give it to me"

"But, shouldn't you do this with a person who would like you back? This is not a healthy relationship...."

She didn't listen and in the end I was too annoyed to argue anymore so I agreed to it. And that's what went wrong. You must be thinking how can having sex with a girl have gone wrong right?

It's just that, I'm not ashamed of saying it cause at that time i didn't know. I couldn't get it up....if you know what I mean.

And that is the most embarrassing year of all my high school.