Chapter 6

*Hospital XXX room*

After knowing what hospital she admitted in, he immediately rush without a second thought hoping that he could see her figure one more time.

In the hospital she is still lying helplessly at the bed, after thingking through what happen, she decide that she will divorce him and let her soul freely from this withered married. She still love him, the thing still remain. She well aware, after all feelings can't be changed so easily. Then she heard he hurried stpes coming to her room.

"Nana! Are you okay?! I am sorry, I am really stupid I-"

"Sen? Why are you here?"

"You said as If I never-"

"That's right"

"I know I didn't deserve to say anything or make you belived, but Nana, did you really belived that I am not love you anymore?"

"I don't know, you are the only one that knew crearly your own feelings, I am just tired Sen"

"I am sorry I, how is your condition?"

"Did your wish me to dead so that I can't annoy you anymore?"

"Nana!!"

Suddenly he hugs her,

"I am sorry, I know that you hate me so much right know but when I know you got an accident my heart so hurt, I can't imagine a live without you, belive me please... I-I know I am careless I thought that maybe you will always be with me, I was wrong I shouldn't believe your sister talk and.."

"It's okay, thank you Sen, but I want to sleep"

"Alright, If you need anything tell me, I will be with you here"

"mm" she nods

She go back to sleep but, when she heard his husband appology, her heart already cold, frozen, she tried to believe him and love him again, she knew deep down in his heart she still have a place but she just couldn't forgive the fact that he still prioritize and choose to spent his time with her step sister. 'I am sorry Sen but I think my choice is final', as she think and cry in her sleep. She still afraid, afraid that the scene will repeat itself, when she waited him until midnight on her birthday to celebrated together, she asked his secretary, until found that he still busy discussing a film with her sister, and when he go home she asked, but he just replied 'I am sorry please, I am tired, don't ask anything' then he didn't bother to talk to her anymore.

She hurt she pain, she just want to spent time with him but.. she still preferred when they are still newly married in small town, though not in luxury but they are are happy in simple house. She naively think that will never change. She told herself the ladys in her former town often gossiped to her that she should be careful in capital, this big city, there will be many slutty woman, just your love isnt enough to keep your husband from all of their gaze, many of people in the capital just care about work luxury, family and affection will change with greed for power. But she didn't careful enough to pay attention to it because she trust her husband ,but to thing that the trust now is just mere words she couldn't control herself, yes she blamed herself for being naive. Miscomunnication with her husband also the reason all of this, she think he also think the same just like hers. But now she couldn't go back to when they were still bloomed in love newly married. She really just tired of this.