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She knocked on the study door waiting for an answer when she hears Mu zain say come in. She entered Mu zain was sat at his desk looking through some files Mu yazhe was sat on the sofa on his laptop doing work both were comparing memos. They both looked at Anna she cleared her throat and "asked are you busy"? They both shook there head. Anna began "I am going to look for my papa I know he is somewhere in Beijing I thought I just let you know okay"! They both answered "you can't". Anna was taken back by their remark she had never been spoken to like that she looked at them both with awful tragic stare she had tears forming in her eyes she held back with her trembling voice she asked:" why not". They both looked at each other waiting for the other to come up with a valid explanation but couldn't think of one Mu zain spoke:" because I said so I'll explain it later go to bed now"!!.

Anna felt like a schoolgirl who just reprimanded for doing something wrong. Anna silently glanced at Mu zain then at Mu yazhe Anna ran out of the room not closing the door behind for head strong person but she was shaken to the core with the reactions she received. She didn't head upstairs to bed but outside to the lawn she went sat on her rock and let the tears roll down her face Anna always cried silently she learned at a very early age she felt a pain in her heart it was like a sharp knife stabbing her left arm felt numb too. She felt cold her body shivered she'd never been disobedience she endured everything in her path the first time she asked for anything she got this reaction all she asked was she wanted to find her papa didn't she have the deserve to have a Papa she must have pissed somebody big time in her last life. Only she knew how it felt growing without a father her Uncles were very good but when it got rough the tough all ran away when she needed them the most she stood all alone. She didn't know when she fell asleep curled into a ball she looked a little kitty

Past

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She rembers from an early age they were made aware that they were orphans although her Auntie a and Uncles took care of them they were around. They were not allowed to talk about their biological parents it was a forbidden topic it. Although they were told by everyone they orphans she was about 13 years old when she found out accidentally that her papa was alive she always wanted to find him but had no clue not picture that she could start from she started doing her investigation only to get caught by her grandad she got reprimanded and was placed in isolation for three weeks her sister cousin and uncle would sneak in but the night was dark, gloomy her shadow guards would also sneak in to keep her company the cold hard floor was her bed she didn't complain she didn't let anyone see her cry or how much pain was in her soul was in. Slowly by slowly, she began to hate her grandad, she knew he was hiding something big did he blame her father for her mother's death did her father have something to do with the death. She ended with more questions than answers. Anna at that time tried to talk to Amelia about it but she told her to let sleeping dogs lie don't wake the wolf. Anna decided to wait until she was older to find the truth but if her father did have something to do with her mother death then she would not hesitate to punish him.

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Present

Anna woke up having the same nightmare she was sleeping in her bed she sat up and smirked to herself whether she was living here or with her granddad, she was always controlled she was always somebody's puppet she just has given the illusion that she was herself. Anna walked to the mirror and looked at her self she thought to herself "who are you what's your identity Anna realised she didn't have her own. She tapped the top of her head why are you feeling sorry for yourself nobody else does just pull your self together, and get on with it. "This is the life you're born a bastard you marry a bitch then you die" she remembers her uncle jack saying it then laughing because he was drunk as sunk while she was carrying him home.

Anna needed some air the air around her was suffocating her she got her gear on went to the garage took her bike and slipped out into the night. At first, she rode around aimlessly then she headed to the compound she went see the shadow guards she asked them to work out they all knew something was up but they never question it the aggression that Anna was showing she was upset about something. Adrian came forward he held on to Anna's hands asked:" want to talk about it". Anna shook her head when Adrian looked closely at Anna he could see she had been crying he pulled Anna in for a hug Anna pushed him away. Anna didn't need anyone sympathy she was not going to be soft.

Anna then turned and walked off to the running track she ran and ran hoping to leave every last bit of feeling weak behind her. The team watch Anna they never have seen Anna like this before no matter what the situation she always had a grip on things. They have seen her go through rough times but today was different. Adrian looked at Ed "my baby girl is hurting". Ed replies "yeah gov is loosing her cool we just need to catch her when she falls". James" she never lets you in she's built a barrier around her". Jackie, "it's all the old man's fault he just kept bullying her". james2 "retorted yeah you right". Jade "she feels she has to suffer alone she just needs to know we here lean on us once in while". Harry " she needs to know we love her so much she is not alone. Anna runs until she can't run any more she feels a sharp pain in her chest she drops to her knees she feels dizzy everything goes black Anna collapses the team run over Ed is the first one he assesses her and yells get the car she's not breathing. They bring her to the A&E the doctor wheel her in all, of the shadow guards are outside in utter disbelief as to what just happened. Li jannan followed them to complete the hospital formality. He then rings Mu zain when he hears what li jannan tells him he drops the phone Mu yazhe asking what's happening he picks the phone up and ask li jannan he repeats what he said Mu yazhe stands there in shock, he looks at Mu zain he grabs his arm and drags him to the hospital.

Mu zain is still been dragged by Mu yazhe to outside the room where Anna is getting treated this is the first time Mu yazhe is seeking the shadow guards. He looks puzzled but they, not his main concern he asks li jannan what the progress is he tells them that the doctors are in haven't come out. They all waiting outside finally a doctor comes out seeking all these people outside he asks for the patient next of kin. Mu zain runs to the doctor "how is she"? She is stable I need to speak to you in my office. My zain and Mu yazhe follows the doctor into his office. The doctor sits down and looks at both of them it's the first time in my career that I have seen such a case. Are you aware that your wife has a bullet lodged just above her heart. Mu zain and Mu yazhe both say " what, how, when"? I was hoping you could tell me I need to remove it as soon as possible she suffered a mild heart attack she is still young we hope for a full recovery so long as she looks after her self. Mu yazhe asks Doctor could you tell us how long the bullet as been there"? It looks roughly about 6-7 years. Mu yazhe and Mu zain both looked at each they knew how she got the bullet and it is their fault. "How is she still alive"? Asked Mu zain. The doctors said "one of life little miracles".

As they left the doctor office Mu zain looked at Mu yazhe I think we are the responsible for 90% of Anna's troubles. Mu yazhe responded "your right". When they reach the room where Anna was awake and the shadow guards were hovering around Anna. Mu yazhe asked," Who are all of you".

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