I won't blame you

present

Tal's p.o.v

why do I feel this darkness is dragging me, it seems like the only thing I could do right now is drowning in this darkness. Wait why do I hear a familiar sound. Oh wait it's Regan's voice. Regan where're you, Regan I can't find you, please tell me Regan I want to find you.... I want to be with you Regan but why is it so difficult..

when I wanted to give up, I saw a way. It seems like there is a way in this darkness, and when I started walking through that way, Regan's voice became more clear. And I felt Regan waking me up, as I slowly opened my eyes, I saw Regan and my family with a worried expression in the same hospital room I was lying before. It seems that this hospital room was made for me, I mean how the hell I could just wake up in this hospital bed every time I wake-up injured, but wait why did I end up in the hospital bed this time?

As I started thinking I remembered that it was Amber that bastard. It seems like Regan and dad helped me. I don't remember what happened to me three years ago but now that I remember everything, a lump formed in my throat, I want to cry but it seems that I can't cry..

Just as I was drowning in my sadness, I felt a warm hand on my cold one. And when I saw the owner of the hand, I bit my lower lip and I looked into his eyes as I thought 'Yeah now I don't deserve this precious soul' I smiled at him through my sadness.

'How dare I even forget about that incident and started loving Regan as if nothing happened, I don't deserve Regan. I am not pure, Regan deserves someone better' as I was thinking this thoughts, I felt so guilty. It was as if I messed up Regan's life.

But then again my thoughts were disturbed as my family went outside leaving me alone with Regan and then I heard his soothing voice "Tal, I want to give you a hug, may I?"Regan asked with a gentle tone.

I immediately refused him by shaking my head, then his hand immediately left mine and with an apologetic tone he said, "I am sorry I didn't mean to be a burden"

"Now you know that right I.. I .."

"I know that" Regan completed my unsaid words.

"oh.. Then that's good, you don't have to stay with me because of your sympathy, you know I am actually a strong girl, so I will not blame you, even if you will leave me" I think I said the most heavy words I could ever think to say Infront of him, that could only be the reason for my heavy heart.

"Tal, is that why you don't want me to touch you" Regan asked me.

'Bingo, how could you just see right through me Regan' I thought as I nodded my head, then suddenly warmness embraced me as Regan hugged me and said "Silly girl, what runs through your mind, why would I leave your just for something like that" Regan said as he laughed.