Falling apart ( part 2)

I had trouble making friends because I'm just socially awkward and the worst thing was we had to do presentations in front of the whole school.

We had to do it without a paper and memorize it and speak for 3 minutes. For me it was a struggle to even raise my hand during class and I had to go on a stage with all the lights pointed to me in a room of strangers and I say strangers because I came one month late to school and still had to do presentations like the 2nd week I had arrived.

To make it short I stood there and didn't say anything and everyone just started at me and as I like to say I was like a dear that had been beamed with headlights. Until my last year everyone remembered that and laughed at me for it and it didn't help that I had done it 3 or 4 times. The teachers said that would only happen if you didn't practice. But that's not true the truth is that I have social anxiety and I didn't know that back then.

So asides from me being incredibly awkward and having bad grades I was being made fun of. I wasn't like the other kids I wasn't skinny and I'm still not. Everyday I would go to school and be made fun of they said I was going to break the floors and called me ugly. I couldn't get help from anyone the teachers would see them making fun of me and they wouldn't do anything. Eventually I got tired and fought back and then the teachers would always call me out and not them. Which enrage me because WTF like seriously!

That was a pretty low time in my life I wanted to die. But the one thing I would look forward to in life was seeing him...