The voice and her identity

After school is so blurry that all I remember is this conversation

Her: "if you want to survive you must listen and feel everything in the dreams"

Me: "it's painful, but useful"

Her: "you know this but you don't want to accept it fully"

Me: "I know how useful it is but does it have to hurt so bad?"

Her: "yes it does"

Me: "fine, but what should I call you?"

Her: "my name is &)?&@~"

Me: "wait what was that?"

That part was especially blurry.