Spacing Out..

Heat season ended. For both of them... Glitch had nearly died and was passed out under red hot coals- half naked- and was exhausted as hell. Calypso tried to escape multiple times so far but Glitch's new dog Izan keeps her in. He's officially keeping her captive till hes decided shes healthy enough to leave.

Glitch's POV

I stood there sharpening my sickles as I watched the girl sleep. I had to give her medication because she was reluctant to sleep. Calypso is a huge struggle when it comes to this, sleeping I don't know why but she hates it- she hates eating too and gets on my nerves so much but at least I'm getting her to actually eat and sleep now- I know this sounds kind of stupid or not but I actually care if she dies. I don't know why but my gut twists and turns every time I get near her. I hate this feeling, but the same time I like it? I'm not sure I have no clue how to respond to this anymore I'm probably just going to have to deal with it and hope it goes away soon.

I watched her chest move up and down as she took simple and slow breaths noticing the medication had worked I decided to finally sit back down in the hot coals and let my wounds heal once again- they stung worse than beehives would, but I did it to make sure she didn't die during my dumb heat season. I'm glad she didn't either.. I would have to explain a lot to her chief aaaand I don't want to go through all of that but so far it's all been good. I know she's gaining more weight so she's isnt all skin and bones as usual but I'm going to have to start making sure she doesn't puke up any of the food I've been feeding her because her and her little friend mocha- I think was her name- have been disappearing and coming back. Calypso didn't look like she ate anything so I'm getting sort of suspicious about this.

"Where the hell of you been?" I glare at mocha as she walks- no, floats into the room. "Out and about.... Why?" A snark comes from me "You are to stay in here till given further notice or so. Got it?". Mocha looks at me scared and nods shakily. She lays with the sleeping girl and I sigh softly. strange emotions have been crossing me lately and it's been kind of scary.

I haven't experienced these emotions before but it looks like Calypso has so I might ask her what these emotions are or... I might ask mocha maybe but that's if I even have time in the middle of the day.. Night shift has been taking up a lot of my time and it's been scaring me a bit because with the amount of night howlers I've been encountering I'm having a bigger struggle staying up checked and careful. My focus has been driving off for some reason and I'm losing track of what I'm doing for a second.

I'll be completely focused and suddenly she will be on my mind! I don't know- I'm confused with myself right now I'm thinking about her- then thinking about my job- then about myself- then her... and then me! and then her... and her... Her and no sorry getting off track now.

I need to start focusing but I can't with Calypso always on my mind God-! How I would love to feel her hands laced with mine...her against my skin hot and brisk... the feeling of her just- just- nevermind I'm done... I can't handle these damned emotions anymore....

I want to remove them but they refuse to leave me! I might have an issue. I think I might have encountered my first addiction her. Calypso she is my new addiction I don't know how I never thought people could be addictions but look at me now addicted to the way she looks at me.

May it be fearful, angered, sad, and confused. It's still a perfect look~ her- her lilac eyes glisten softly in the light no matter where we are. She's always looking angelic her hair perfectly set up wavy or not it has the most beautifully setup style the way the blonde fades into the brown and the Brown fades into the blond.

The way her neko ears will point down at me whenever she gets Moody with me her little pout whenever she's angered.

The way she was swinging arm at me I don't care if it hits me or not as long as I can feel her I'm happy she's not a stupid ghost floating around my head taunting me telling me to do what's right and what's wrong.

Telling me that I'm an asshole is good enough! I don't care if she hates me I don't really care if I hate her I may act like it but I love her I'll have to admit I can't hold myself back anymore.

God how I wanted to kiss her for so long she's my whole, my everything I swear I would kill for her I would rip a man's throat out and repeatedly shove it back down the hole it came from for her. I would slaughter an entire village and revive it for her...

I know it sucks sound like some stupid hopeless romantic but you know what I am one I may be in 99% emotionless tsundere put I'm not stopping. I don't care if she's going to backhand me the moment I try to feed her again. She needs to food if she needs to be healthy she needs to be healthy I'm not going to let her starve herself.

I don't care if I have to go to the ends of the world to find her again I don't care if someone tries to snatch her from me. I will fight for her. I will put my life on the line for this woman. I don't care if I barely know her she is the ultimate sacrifice. I will put my life on the line for her then again what would she do for me.....?