Chapter 19

Chapter 19

Since that day, I chose to seclude myself to other people whenever I'm in academy. No one's exemption, not Leo nor Amanda. I don't want them to drag with me. With an omega like me.

"Kyle!" It was Leo. But I avoided him.

"Kyle-kun~!" I always act as if I didn't see Amanda when she's calling me. She's been following me for days but this day, she stopped.

I made sure that even Andie and I had misunderstanding, I still fullfilled my duty as the leader of our group. I didn't talk to her or Angelo with non research concerns. I'm glad that Andie kept her mouth shut because if she really spill it, I'll mark her not included with our research.

I choose not to give them more attention because they're not worth it of any.

I really want to hurt her that day. If not only I'm part of student council and she's a girl, I'll do it. I'm furious that day, but I don't want to steep down their level. It's not my problem if their intelligence level were lacking that bad.

But ever since our encounter, their words keeps on circulating inside my mind.

Growing up with the kind of family that I have, around those people who don't stereotype others based on their secondary gender, I know I'm lucky. But it doesn't mean I dint get hurt when people throw spiteful words towards me.

I still remember my childhood was like. When my classmates bullied me because I'd got omega as my secondary gender. I still remember when my older brothers protect me with those narrow minded people who keep on hating me.

"You're stinky! Don't come near us!" One of my classmates said and pushed me.

I didn't cry, I stood up fast and pushed him too. "Hey, orc face! What's your problem, huh?!" I said.

"Ouch!" He yelled. "You'll pay for this!" He said while pointing his finger at me. After that, some of his friends hold me.

"Let go!" I said. But they just laughed. The bully that I pushed stoo up.

"We hate omegas! They're stinky! They're nasty! And you're omega, so we should hate you too!" He said. He was about to punch me when Calix arrived.

"What the fuck are you doing with Kyle?!" He yelled that made those bully run. "Tsk, are you okay?" I nodded.

"I'm fine. Let's go home, Calix." I said and picked up my bag from the ground. Calix looked worried it he just let it go since I told him that I'm fine.

Those memories are still fresh, lingering in my mind. It's a bad memory but I don't want to forget it.

"I didn't chose to be omega but I chose not feel ashamed with my secondary gender." That was my mother's words that I held on everytime I felt down.

Because world's really no fair. Full of prejudice and mistreatments.

People tend to choose their future based on their secondary gender.

That they'll fail and lose since they're omega.

That they'll take another chance since they're beta.

That they'll certainly get what they want since they're alpha.

That ideology sucks, this whole world sucks.

"You seem preoccupied." I snapped out from my thoughts when I heard someone talked. I looked at that person.

I was at our building's rooftop. I want some peace and fresh air. I thought I'd be finally alone but I'm certainly wrong. Because right now, Leo's standing near me.

"Ah, yeah." I scratched cheek. "I'll go ahead, Leo."

I was about to walked away when he held my right arm.

"Did we do something wrong?" He looked at me intently.

I avoided his gaze. "Huh? What are you talking about?"

"You thought we'll never notice? You're avoiding me and Amanda." I tried to remove his hands but it's so tight.

"I'm not, let go of me, Leo."

"I will, but first, answer me why."

I lowered my head. "Because I'm... I'm an omega..." I said in low voice.

"And so?"

I lifted my head and looked at him with wondering eyes. "What do you mean 'and so'? Can't you see? I'm not supposed to be with you guys."

I'm of hearing hurtful words. I have no more Calix, Felix nor John by my side. I'm the only one's who can feel the pain. Just me and no one else.

I added, "You're just pitying, ain't you? Now that John's not here, I'm all alone." I blinked many times to prevent myself from crying. "Don't worry, Leo. I understand if you'll stay away from me. Both you and Amanda."

His eyebrows crested. "Where are you getting these thoughts?" His grip tightened.

"J-Just mine..." I said. "I already answered you, now let me go."

His hands slowly slipped. A part of me felt disappointed but I think it's better that way.

I heard him sigh.

At this very moment, I can't help but to stare at him. Leo is such a good guy, no wonder Andie likes him. Plus he has good looks too. He has this boy next door vibes that every girl could fall for. He had this W

Wavy curly hair with dark ash brown color. Almond shaped eyes with black orbs and long lashes. He also had this oblong shaped and v- shaped jawline. This matches his slightly thin figure and his height of I think around 185 centimeters.

He's really en eye candy, this really matches his alpha gender.

"Hmmm, so... bye." I pressed a force smiled on my lips then turned my back to walk.

But before I walked away, Leo spoke.

"Are you retarded? You keep on calling Amanda dummy, but you're also one." He said.

I looked at him again. "What are you---"

"I'm not done yet, shut up." He said. "I'm seriously wondering where the hell are you getting those words. Pitying you? Have you heard us told you that?"

I shook my head. "N-No..."

"Leave you? Have you seen how Amanda chase after you?"

I nodded. "Y-Yeah..."

"You're not supposed to be with us? Why? Do you have incurable sickness to avoid of?"

"I-I haven't..."

"It's settled, don't avoid us anymore."

"But Leo---"

"Do you see us as your friend?" That moment, my tears began to fall. "Answer me, Kyle."

While crying, I nodded slowly. "Yes..."

"Then you are."

"No, people will judge you like how they judged me. I don't want you guys experience that." I said while sobbing.

"Is it Andie?" I didn't answer. "She told you something."

My eyes widened. "How did you know?"

"I just notice the awkward atmosphere between you and her." He answered. "Do you want me to talk to her?" He added with serious tone.

I shook my head. "No..."

"Okay, I won't but please, don't avoid us anymore, " I could his begging voice. "And Kyle, I'll tell you this one last time. We don't care whether you're omega or not. We don't care what would other people say. You are impostant to us and those things won't change our impression to you. You are you, Kyle is Kyle no matter what happen. Understand?"

I nodded as a answer.

Leo's good with communication. Simple words from him with make you listened and follow. I feel so immature and weak infront of him. But I can't help but to cry.

I was still sobbing when I felt something patted my head.

"Stop crying, dummy. It doesn't suit you. Where's the tiger Kyle that we all know?"

I wiped away my tears and looked at him with more confidence then smirked.

"Here."

Leo smiled. "Good. Welcome back, Kyle." He said then ruffled my hair.

After Leo and I talked at the rooftop, we when back to our class. I want to talked to Amanda but Leo told me to wait the class to finished first before talking to her. When I heard the final bell rang, I fixed my stuffs and dragged Leo out of the room.

"Are you sure she'll talk to me?" I asked Leo while peeking at Class A's room.

"I don't know, that girl's weird. Who knows what she's thinking." Leo said with wondering voice.

I rolled my eyes at him. "You're not helping."

"Find the way out of your own problems, bro." Leo said jokingly.

Amanda is still inside even though the bell already rang. I saw her talking to one of her classmates.

"Aren't they going home already?" I hissed.

"Gossips is more important for them, you know." Leo joked.

One by one, Amanda's classmates leave the room. Some of them even talked to us.

"You're looking for Amanda?" Leo and I nodded. "She's inside, you could enter, no one's inside but her."

I gulped.

"Come on, let's go." Leo slightky pushed me.

I'm starting to sweat. "Can we do it some other time? I think Amanda's busy, I think. Maybe tommorrow, yes! Tomorrow, I'll talk to her tommorr. Hehehe."

'Kyle, what the fuck are you scraed at?!'

Leo looked at me with cold eyes. "No, let's go."

He pulled me inside Amanda's room. I'm really hesitating to enter. I avoided her for days and now, I'm facing her. I know she noticed us but she keot on doing other things.

I looked at Leo, but he glared at me. So I've got no choice bit to called out Amanda.

"Hey..." I called her in low voice. But she's still not looking at us.

"Amanda..." I tried calling her again but still no reponse.

"Hey, Amanda..." still no response.

I shut my eyes closed. I trued not to lose my patience since I'm an fault her. But damn, she's stubborn!

"Amanda!" This time it's louder. "Come on, talk to me." But like the earlier attempts, she still didn't response at me.

I looked at Leo but he just shrugged. I sighed.

"I-I..." I heave a deep breathe. "I regret it..." I finally said it. "I know I'm being immature these past few days, I ingored both you and Leo. My actions were unacceptable, I know. But... the thing is, ahmm..."

I don't know what words to say. My hands were trembling. Saying sorry to Amanda is way harder than apologizing to Leo. Most of them time, she's the one who's acting like a kid, pulling childish acts but now it flipped, I'm the one who's doing it.

"I don't really know where to start, but honestly, I regret not talking to you. I regret avoiding and I'm very sorry because of that. I have a lot of issues within me, I'm being self - conscious of what I am. I thought keeping distance with everybody would answer these damn questions that I have but I'm wrong. I just waste my time thinking unimportant matters and---" before I could finish explaining, she cut my words off.

"I don't need those long explanations, Kyle." She looked at me with forlorn expression. "Just two words, Kyle. That's enough."

I gulped. I know what she's talking about. I'm just gathering all the courage that I have to say it.

"I'm sorry..." I lowered and gripped my fist. I'm biting my lower lip to prevent myself from crying.

Seconds passed, I heard noises which I bet from her chair. Noises from footsteps followed, it was coming at my direction. Then from my vision, since my eyes were glued in the floor, I saw Amanda's feet in front of me.

I liftd my head and I saw her with an expression that I've never seen before.

"I'm so---" she hugged me. It's not her usual lively, clingy hugged. But a hugged with emits warm and tenderness.

Amanda's taller than me. I'm just about her ears. She resembles Leo. Same slightly thin figure. She had this curvy body, for me, she had perfect vital statistics, that you could mistaken as model. Brown straight hair with full bangs that covers her rounded lower arch eyebrows. Oblong shaped face, turn up nose, and heart shaped lips.

Cast aside her childish attitude, she's one of the prettiest student here in our academy. But of course, I'll never tell her that. She'll keep boasting if she heard me saying those.

I can't help but to reciprocate that hugged tthe same tightness like hers.

"Baka!" She yelled. "You told me before that I'm your friend, but why can't you open up with me? Am in untrustworthy?"

I shook my head.

"Then why?" I heard her sobs. "You have problems, I can feel it. But you're not telling us. You're just keeping by yourself."

"I'm sorry... I don't want to trouble you guys."

"We don't care!" She yelled. I bit my lips and tapped her back.

"I know, sorry."

She stop talking, she just hugged me. She's still sobbing. I felt someone tapped my head. It was Leo.

"Let's go home." He said.

Amanda and I nodded. Before she let go from the hug, she whispered something at my ear.

"Trust us more, we're your friends." She whispered.

That ached my heart. I know their story but I kept mine a secret. But I can't just tell them about it.

The three of us walk the waiting shed. No one's talking but we know deeo in ourselves that we already adjourn the issue.

Before we went inside our buses, we bid goodbyes.

"See you tomorrow." I said.

Leo nodded. "Yeah."

"Bye guys, keep safe." I said then step inside on the bus doorstep.

Before entering completely I heard Amanda talk.

"Don't avoid us anymore tommorrow." She said.

I threw her a look. "Of course." I smiled then entering the bus completely. Later on, the bus moved.

While seating inside, I can help but to think.

' I'm sorry, I don't think I can open up yet. Not just this time.'

-DriewNrocinu