Friday part 1******* Warning ********Self Harm and other Disturbing Content.

Warning self harm and other disturbing content

POV:

Nym

Artist:Chelou-song:Halfway to Nowhere

Plays

" How do you get out of bed in the morning.

How do you wait to carry the day

Yeah I sing for pleasure

I have sung for pain

I'm still halfway to nowhere

I'm still nothing today"

The alarm on my phone blared off at 4:00 A.M. Morning already huh, I swung myself off the bed and prepared myself to go take a cold shower. I grabbed a towel from my cabinet and headed towards the bathroom.

On the way I passed my giant fish tank wall that had Atlantic sea nettles (type of jellyfish). " Good morning Nyx, Caelum , and Ezra."

Ahhh such deadly yet beautiful creatures. Their bodies swayed in the water; they drifted looking like ribbons on a wedding dress. Speaking of dress what should I wear today to go shopping with Charlotte?

Probably a leather jacket with a hibiscus red cross stitch shirt, dark jeans and some combat boots. Should I wear makeup? Meh I'll deal with it after my shower. I gently shut the bathroom door, removed all of my bandages, and jumped into the shower. I turned the knob all the way to the right so it was ice cold and began to scrub my body.

Old blood began to slowly twirl into the drain like serpents. New blood began to flow from the lacerations along my body. I scrubbed harder but no matter how much I try I will never be rid of the atrocities that I had committed. Let me pay with each drop of my blood until my departure from my mortal husk, which is worth less than a broken doll left in the dirt. Forever dirty, forever tainted, forever shattered in mind and body. It's so fitting isn't it. Horrific broken laughter shook my body slowly turning into sobs. I stayed there for a while on the floor with insanity in my eyes. I turned to the knife under my counter. Slowly I carved more markings into my flesh, never once grimacing at the pain. Each cut felt like another cut on her soul. Every slice of the skin bled from the deepness of the cuts.

" You deserve this for all that you've done, you deserve it. YOU DESERVE EVERYTHING THAT RECEIVE. YOU ARE WORTHLESS." I screamed at myself. "Why did you have to be the one to die? Why couldn't it have been me? You were to good for me. Why didn't you leave me? Why couldn't I have died instead?"

Blood continued to flower faster and darker, her screams were chilling to the bone. Blood surrounded her until her eyes returned back to there normal broken state.

Realizing what I had done I quickly grabbed the towel and applied pressure over the wounds. "I broke again, didn't I?" I murmured. After the bleeding stopped I put salves and bandages over my injuries. Hurriedly I dried off and got ready for work as it was now 6:00 A.M.

I'll have to leave at 3:30 today to go get ready to go shopping with Charlotte. I should probably text her and ask for the details and such.

'Are we still on for today?' Nym

'Yes, that is if you are still able to go.' Charlotte

' I wouldn't miss it. Where are we meeting at?' Nym

' How about my house and then we can go from there?' Charlotte

'Sounds good. Can I call you if I need directions?' Nym

'Of course, I'll see you then :)' Charlotte

' See you then :)' Nym