alone in my head

has everyone left my hospital room sat there crying just thinking say it's not right that he just to pick and choose what secrets and what lies to tell me and I believe thing after all he is my grandfather he could tell everyone this secret that the devil was his twin brother I'm just so mad and tired of him thinking he knows what's best for everybody I know he's the leader but he has to start putting us first we are the Warriors of Heaven he always says it feels like a chess game and we're just the pawns and he is the king I think about Gabriel how she must feel I know she's beating herself up it makes me sad. She's hurt. I cannot do nothing about it I love her with all my heart and soul I wish you knew how much you means to me but then I started thinking about Gabriel's kiss I wonder if she feels the same way that I feel about her probably not she probably just thought about it to keep me from walking out the hospital room I am hurt after all pretty bad my grandfather is going to take charge of everything wonder what's going to happen tomorrow and then I'll turn off my lamp lay down in my bed and then try to go to sleep hopefully I'll be out of this hospital tomorrow