Story 46. The Person I Love (2)
Chapter 78
It would have felt nicer if I spent my days reflecting and meditating. It would have been better if these days were given to me so my body could heal.
The Goddess' warrior rarely visited me. When he did come to me, he spent the night with me tightly in his arms. He made sure I could not move at all, and this left me hot and bothered. I laid awake, unable to get any sleep.
Was I being loved? I felt the strong urge to touch him, but my hands were restrained by his, and I was helpless.
During the daytime, I often fell asleep only to be woken up with a flinch. When I began to feel hunger, a servant would come and leave me some food, which I would gulp down like an animal. Too much food sometimes made me go into a strange seizure.