boredom

Now that there's no school for the rest of the year because of the virus, boredom strikes me like lightning. I mean- boring to be bored. In these past few weeks, I have done every possible thing to keep me out of boredom but they also get boring after a point. It is like I'm stuck in this cycle of boredom that I can't get out of.

Honestly, it takes some skill to stay bored.

I cloud watch when I'm bored. It is such a boring activity that everytime I cloud watch, I drift into thoughts in my head and then regret thinking of certain things. Some thoughts include- "that outfit I wore 2 years ago to a birthday party, literally ew. Why did I even wear it? It looked so ugly. That's why no one spoke to me". I then regret wearing that outfit I wore 2 years ago and then regret thinking of that outfit again.

I cook sometimes and it used to be fun, until we got quarantined. Now cooking only seems like a chore. Very sickening.

My mom says that my room looks like a garbage dump and it smells bad too, but listen, I am too bored to clean my room.

I wake up at 9:00am and then drink milk and start my schoolwork. with frequent breaks and brunch in-between, I complete my work by 2:30pm. I then have nothing to do and turn to social media instead. Then I just lose my mind. haha.