"ON And ON" Yoongi Oneshot

the tears roll of my cheeks it keeps going ON and ON. yoongi hasn't been home for a year now dating an idol is not easy at all. i just want him to be home already. his mom keeps bothering me nagging me telling me I'm not good enough. all the strength i had left is gone. he knows I'm not this strong and that i just want him to myself for a day at least but i care about his career. he almost quit because of me and of course, i stopped him just in time.

he's wanted this all his life how could i take it from him?

i reject to be selfish. but it's so much for me to endure.

i get up wiping my tears i wish it was that easy but more fall. i hug the pillow that had his faint scent.

suddenly the door clicked open.

Ji-Seok's probably here checking up on me.

i don't even bother to look up but suddenly someone jumps on me hugging me tightly kissing my neck up slowly light butterfly kisses making it tickle me just a bit i giggle. grabbing my face in both of his hands. kissing my cheeks kissing my salty tears away.

"What did i say about crying hm?" He questioned me.

"Yoongi- i missed you-" i said before hugging him tightly hiding my face in his neck sobbing lightly i want to be with him like this forever minus the crying.

he wrapped his arms around me slowly taking me in close. he's so understanding.

"I'm sorry... for not being strong enough- i know i don't deserve you-"

"shh be quiet who told you all these lies you're really strong 1 year... Y/n that's crazy i don't deserve you"

he said in a whisper breaking the hug taking a strand of hair out of the way tucking it behind my ear lightly.

"I wanted to see your face"

"i want to kiss you inside out"

"so take a little breath of air."

he said before attacking my lips strongly with a different aura pained, desperate, a strong aura. luring me in drawing me into his rightful arms getting me attached to him.

but unfortunately, we are humans and humans need to breathe so we let go.

"I'm sorry... this keeps going on and on you cry i come we're back together and happy- you're hurting because of me Y/n you can't go on with this my mom slamming at your door yelling at you every day I'm scared Y/n you need me i know you do. and i can't give you me because of my stupid dreams I'm selfish for wanting you and my dream i know i am. because we can't just kiss and make up that's now how love works y/n you know that but you trust me I'm really sorry Y/n"

he said resting my head on his chest where his nervous heartbeats laid.

"i know that is not how love works yoongi but love is being patient and having understanding"

"I know you're growing impatient Y/n."

"But i understand and trust you yoongi"

" that is no reason for you to forgive me."

"I love you is that not a good enough reason?"

"y/n you're crying you're hurt that hurts me too"

"these sorrows will always eat us whole yoongi we just need to become a little bit stronger.

sorrow lives on our tears and devours off all happiness. we just need to be strong enough to

handle it i will be strong and patient for you yoongi."

we ended up just holding each other in our arms not wanting to let go with little kisses and pecks on the lips here and there love touched the air if only one flare was enough to care. i know he'd have to leave again and say he loves me to shut the door softly.

he then caressed my arms ever so gently softly kissing me over and over again being gentle and light. pressing me up against him. then going down to my neck sucking and biting softly making me let out a whine, of course, he was doing this playfully.

"I love you"

he whispers into my ear softly nibbling my earlobe after being done with my neck. i giggle.

"i love you too yoongi."

"Just wait 6 more years we'll start a beautiful family with 2 beautiful children and a big eye-pleasuring house i promise."

he said i slapped his arm gently as he said 6 years and 2 beautiful children. he softly chuckled in my ear. before grabbing my waist and spinning me around.

he then put my feet on the ground holding my face with his hands before kissing me again but this time softly as if i might break if he sinks in too rough. i giggle as he breaks the kiss. kisses me on the forehead.

"how about a head start on the children's part?"

he said. my eyes widened after understanding what he meant before slapping his arm again as he laughed at my tomato looking face.

i shall wait for 6 more years but you shall forever stay in my heart even when you leave on and on.

THE END

did you like the surprise if you didn't know BTS released a new song so i just had to do this for them!

6/7 more years ARMY'S i wanted to make this a bit more special emotional and heart touching since none of you answered my question from the last post i kinda don't want to even bother with another FF. I'm an author who gladly knows there worth and if you don't care when i give you choices that hurts me and affects my worth please be careful about that because it hurt quite a lot.

anyways have a great weekend my wild berries!~

-Jae Lin. Kang💜😅

also inspired by Marina Lin's new song you'll recognize a lot of the parts inspired by her and BTS's new songs such as 'filter' by Jimin or obviously 'ON' i can't put Marina Lin's new song's name because it kinda doesn't have one.

ok, that's officially it! Bye dumplings! see you when i see you! UwU