Nothing... Just nothingness in this pitch black space.
That what he is feeling right now, nothingness to nothing. It's like he can trace himself where his hand, foot, neck, head and every part of him. But, on the back of his mind is nothingness, insight of him is a vass ocean of self.
It's a strange situation and hard to experience. Though a great intellected observation he has, he can't explain it clearly.
Oh... so, this is death... He thought.
Remembering what's his deeds, he concluded that this is what the after life is, and that's what they'd gotten right even though it's a crap to be a conversation about.
So this what i'll get to keep the peace in my world... A pretty dark thing to be my gift.
He complain. Samaritan... No, he doesn't think so.
Though, he saved the world because of a hidden threath that will bring down generation after generation of suffering. It's just a act of his selfishness.
His health is already withering, and death is already near for him. Killing the king is for himself, in what he prioritize more than saving the world, which he did. He is not a saint and whoever think themselves a saint is a fool, who's life is a delusional monkey.
A mayor can't feed all of his people, much more than a king which ruled them all. And lastly a God that can't help all of his creation.
So no one have the right's to call themselves "saint". That word should never been existed if human can be smart once in a while, that all of us is dirty living creatur-.....
He blanked out, as he thought this is a crap to argue about in this pitch black place.
He subconsciously bend down as he felt the warm which this place giving it. But a sudden burst shake the surrounding, though this void is just pitch black and no land to shake.
As he analyze the event, he feel a warm water that gracing him as it past through his body, and the direction of it is downward. Again of pulse and sudden burst downward, pulled him like a magnet.
He tried to swam-up as it's the human behavior should act, fear is what always human instinct was and that instinct is for fear of unknown.
Although, his action or mind gives progress of swimming up, but the pulse still continueing pulling him down!
What the f*ck!!!
A sudden jolt surprise him, because a hand suddenly grab his legs and slowly pulling him down. Though it's not a surprising thing, what make difference was, this is surprisingly big!
Half of his leg can grab by this big hand!
The pitch black void is now undergoing on phenomenal event which not making any sense. First, this place is void, so there's no calamity can took place in this realm, and what was this earth-quake feeling!
He tried to fight back but his body is too weak.
If i make it out alive in here, i'll surely give that king a good beating again!!!
He cursed the king, remembering who's the one made his body exhausted to the point he can't fight back at all. As he struggled, he heard a voice which he can't understand.
Who cares! it's just a gibberish thing... He thought, assumpted that his hearing is his past memory which making sense to him and this place. Making he remember his life and regret before a hellish experience.
"$@#$?!#"
The voice keep getting clearer. It's a middle-aged woman voice as it frantically shout. Even though he can't understood what her saying is, but her voice can tell what her state she's in.
He can only watch and can't do anything as the hand pulled him. Only he can do is brace himself for what would happened.
Blinding light block his vision as he tried to open it.
"#?!@$%# ##$! ?!%#"
"?!#@$% ?!$##"
"#@$$ @##!!#"
Ear-pearcing he hear which he can't bear the loudness of it. He tried to shout as his eye's close. Surprisingly, his voice created a low cry, which a baby infant should sounded. Many attempt of him to correct it, but his voice is really what infant do!
With his vision blocked, he can only feel what is happening in the surrounding. With the hand in his leg, it clutched on his both legs which the hand in his back let go, dangling him upside down.
Slap!!
He feeled a hot smack in his butt, inflicting him in pain. He curses, which in infant cry resonated again.
"@##$##$"
"#$!"
He heard the woman command as he feel a warm water on his back. Slowly, a cloth are being wipe on his body, wiping those stinky fluid in his delicate-feeling-skin.
Amidst of all those wiping. He on the other hand are struggling to get away on those giant grasps. With those hopeless kick and swing of his hand, and cursing language of him that resonate in infant cry, didn't do anything to his situation.
Long enough, his vision handle itself in this new condition. But still not cleared enough to see the surrounding, with those blurry pixelated giant silhouette that he see.
"$#?!@$#@#"
"!#$?%"
A horsed woman voice he heard in his back and the woman in his front answererd in hesitant. The woman pass him to the person lied in the bed. Her face is pale as she just delivered her first baby which is difficult to a young mother.
He forcely yank his head to look up. With his blurry vision and upside down sight to look at the person above him. He can't picture enough what the woman face or make a sign of indication of who she is.
"@$?!@$#@#"
The woman said which he can't understand. Knewing that he can't do anything to defend himself on what might come. He enter the state of calmness and just darted his eye everywhere in the room.
The three other person in the room move as they cleaned the place. He just guested what are they doing because of his problematic vision right now.
Not long enough, he felt the woman by his side breathing slow down. She already asleep because of her birth delivery which really drained her strength.
A woman lifted-him out of the woman embrace. Which the one who spanked his butt, white-gray pixelated hair. That's what his sign for the woman and the other's in this room. Which the thing that they all have uncommon about, except for the pixelated image that his getting.
Right now, he is being carried in the long brilliant corridor and decorative walls. Outside in the window, a windy storm brings liveliness to the forest that can seen through the window.
The white-gray haired woman brings him to the 6th room starting on the room which they'd came from. The room consist of three bed with each have table study, and 2 big cabinet in both side of the door.
White-gray haired woman approach the left bed beside the window. Lied down, the woman take a four pillow and barricaded him around, and leave to the door which they entered, leaving him alone in this bright room.
So, what now?... He ask himself, grumpily, as he look around using his eye ball.
First, let rearrange what the sequence of the event that happened.
I'm should supposed in the middle of the fight, and not in this confusing place. Wait, i know that i died without a doubt, which mean, this is reincarnation?... Well, for what all happenings right now, it's really a big factor that it's true. Explained for this infant body, and having my memory of my past life... He thought, forgeting to rearranged the events.
But, my memory supposed to be wiped out, right?... Because if i have my memory of my past life, then all of the people in this world will know their past life too... ngghh, this is so confusing.
Don't care! that matter are not important right now. All i need to know is where am i? and who am i right now!?... With his experience handling a matter in his entire life, problem first before celebration.
Which his problem are. What happening right now? and what he can do?
His thoughts are battling about what the outcomes are. Which have pros and cons. Good thing, he have a new life which everyone dream. Bad side of it, the world are cruel place in reality, and infant are basically vulnerable in every things.
Died as a infant is a not shocking news in him. What will probably shock him is dying as one. Heck! he might died before that happened, thinking about it make him infuriating.
If my deduction is right. Then, which means the woman early that sleeping on the bed is my mother?... He guest. Typicaly in the world, delivering a baby needed help, which midwife are for to assist the childbirth.
Obviously, the one pulled him and spank him is the midwife, which the white-gray haired woman.
And the one embracing him is his mother, as the evidence of his observation. Horsed voice, lied down in the bed, and resting after the childbirth.
Eeehh... eegghh...
Yanking himself as he swing side to side momentuming the force, so he can face the window, which nothing happened as he still facing the ceiling, feeling a little dizzy. He tried to use his head, but stopped, as he felt the unbearing pain to his neck.
Proving the fact baby's are the hopeless lifeform, if you will look in the dark side, It's undeniably true, but if you will look in the butterfly world, your surely say his psycopath. That he doesn't care about, as his life defended on this! Not the others!
But first of all, he is very hungry right now, which the midwife forgotten of all thing she needed to forget.
Great.... He muttered inside.