Of course, all this happened in her previous life. It did not happen in her present life given by God's grace. Neither her father, her only blood, nor Emperor Eckart who knew what's going on in Aslan, could blame her stupidity because they didn't know what she experienced in her previous life.
As a result, it was she who was supposed to feel all guilt and self-reproach. Only she, who was now living a second life, could curse and blame her previous foolish life.
She was willing to reprove herself. She reproached all the choices of her previous life and all the hopes she had in her present life.
And she wished all this were a dream. She wished if you closed and opened her eyes, today was just one of those days when nothing happened...