Eckart was willing to pay whatever price he had to, and he never wanted anyone to understand his complicated feelings. In order to endure this terrible life, he took a lot of goods and lives, and at the same time, he reflected on a passage from the discipline of kingship that stated there was no shame for the monarch. He pushed a sense of abominable guilt into the deep unseen place in his heart. He felt it was his responsibility to endure it all by himself.
So, he was not supposed to be comforted by her kind words like this.
He thought so, but he touched the letters of the letter unconsciously as if he wanted to drink up every drop of Marianne's undeserved affection.
He reached the end of the rather long letter.