I'm an Idiot right?

As he was busy with his laptop I had to take a chance, I went straight to his desk pressed the button that connected him and his P.A. His P.A answered "yes Mr. Radebe" she said.

"Pretty please cancel all my meetings today I'll be very busy." as I was speaking to his P.A, dads face changed and he got so furious the look on his face freaked me out! But in my heart I was glad I did all that!

"What are you doing?" he asked. And Just before I could utter a word he spoke. "Wait! Wait, what have you just done?" he asked. He was angry I was all unstable and my toes were sweating but even so I stood my ground.

"I came here to you" still unstable "am here because am seeking your advice, I bunked my classes because am miserable, I can't sleep at night, I'm shaking as I am speaking to you now, my toes are all sweaty, I don't know how I should feel, whether I'm supposed to feel like this, if my standing here speaking to you is disrespecting you, I'm sorry, my doing so is all because I fear and respect you at the same time, and don't know what you'll do to me, all am asking is please hear me out!"

He came closer to me and said.

"What would you like to drink?" He looked relaxed, but I wasn't and carried on "water, tea, soda or coffee?" he asked.

The only thing I could ask for was water, at least water will cool me down, he poured a glass and told me to sit down, I sat down and he gave me the glass of water to drink as I sipped a little just to calm myself.

"Son you don't have to be afraid of me and after all, I've never laid my hands on you." he said.

"Yes you've never laid your hands on me but your tongue lashing does scare me." I had to open up to him and tell him how he made me feel.

"I'm sorry that I made you feel that way, perhaps I was too hard on you and I never noticed. May you please forgive me?" He spoke calmly whilst stretching out his hand to give a hand shake. I could see that he wanted to give me a hug. I wouldn't hold it back, after all his my father he brought me to this planet earth, without him I wouldn't be the man I have become today.

"Of course pa," With a smile on my face "I'm never angry at you dad." we hugged yeah we did, humble beginnings.

"Good" he said "talk to me son, say whatever that is in your heart."

"Um… dad your name is 'Joe' Jonas and you gave me a similar name as yours why is that?"

"Son, i am sure you didn't cancel all my meetings to ask me that." he said.

"No! Not at all just that I'm being curious that's all." I said. And he did it again looking me with those curious eyes of his.

"Ok, See my father gave me this name and it's from the Bible, you do remember Jonah? The guy who didn't listen to God, he took his own way instead of going to where God leaded him too, Nineveh? And he chose Tara-shish?" he explained.

"Yeah, I know that story pops just that I don't see you and Jonah being alike."

"Oh son," He said. "You saying this cause you don't know everything what your father has been doing, I have to tell you the whole history about me." As he pointed himself, this sounded interesting.

"I am so interested in your history pops, so what about my name Joseph?" I enquired "did you name me after Joseph, Jesus step dad or Joseph son of Rachel and Jacob?"

"The truth is I named you after Joseph son of Rachel." Just the moment when he said 'son of Rachel' I saw a smile on his face, his facial changed and his eyes glow and he folded his arms and licked his lips and he uttered "Oh L.O.V.E" he said "Jacob named Rachel's son Joseph because he loved Rachel more than his other wife's and I named you Joseph for the love I had and still have for your mom is so precious, when I found out that she's going to give me a son. Out of all the names that are in the world all I could think of, was what Jacob went through because of his love for Rachel and I also went through a lot for the love I had for your mom, we almost shared the similar troubles, similar situations." He paused for a minute, took a deep breath then stood up went to a self-portrait of him and mom. He then asked me a question.

"So as a Christian boy what name would you love to give to your son or daughter?" I wasn't prepared or expecting this kind of questions. I had to answer for he was now opening to me and I could see in his eyes how he feels about my mom, the love Jacob had for Rachel, Jacob labored for years because of the love he had for Rachel.

"So which name will you give your son, son?"

"Am thinking of Nathan," I replied.

"Why Nathan" he asked again.

"I love the prophet Nathan," I said "Prophet Nathan would go and do or tell what the Lord had ordered him to do just like every other prophet he was God sent, a true man of God!"

"So you don't like the other names, Samuel, Elijah, Elisha and etc. but Nathan huh?"

"Just Nathan pops," I said it in a polite way.

"So as you already have a name so technically that means there's a young beautiful lady in your life,"

"I don't know pops if that son of my mine will have a mother" as I wiggled my head both sides.

"What do you mean son? Are you telling me that you don't have a girl friend at your age?" he said.

"Yeah I don't, and hopefully you now think that I am an idiot right?"

"And why would I even think that son?" he asked.

"You got mom and I can't get myself a girl! Perhaps Trevor was right! Maybe I'm not meant to get married, settle and have a beautiful wife after all.

As I was whining about my boring life a call got in. I exclaimed!

"But dad, we cancelled every meeting and every call and why is your phone ringing?" he just looked at me.

"What time is it?" he asked, as if I didn't say a word but then I answered.

"11:30 why do you even want to know what time is it anyway?"

"I always have a meeting or a call at this time" he said.

"Huh?"

"See son I can cancel every call or meeting but not 11:30" he spoke calmly.

I had to ask. "What is so precious about this time, '11:30'?"

"Just open your eyes, ears and zip your mouth" he winked.

I felt less important, we agreed and cancelled every meeting but then who am I? 11:30 is more important than me; he saw my facial expression that I'm now sad. He just paused and stared at me. I took my bag pack and when I was about to leave.

"Wait!" he said "there are things you need to learn. You don't have the braveries to ask me what kind of a call I am taking right now. And you'll just take your bag and leave?"

"All I know is that it's important than me." I said in a polite way.

"And yes! It is important!" when he said those words I felt like I could cry, but then I'm a man and men don't cry I kept myself together. He then said

"You cancelled all my meetings, meetings that put food on your table, you won't walk through that door!" he ordered me not to leave his office.

"Put her through," he said. And his phone was on speaker and the voice I heard was a women's voice I came closer, I wanted to listen to the voice loud and clear and she said.

"I hope you'll make up for the seconds you made me wait!" and that woman was my mom, when I looked at my watch the time was 11:40, and she just said seconds.

"My dear please forgive me, I'll rub your feet, bring you coffee in bed and kiss you from your heart to lips until the seconds I made you wait are over".

"Mm. that is so romantic Mr. Radebe, so when will you start paying for your sins?" she asked

"Mm Mrs. Radebe when do you think I should start? Cause you know whenever I've wronged you I'm always willing to pay the fine." he said.