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Azusa POV

Walking away from the argument, I found myself still frustrated and i don't know the reason why. I don't even know why I lashed out like that. As I kept walking, I found the entrance to where the statues of the previous avatars were built. I opened it using air bending and after a few seconds, the giant door opened. I went inside and saw a few braziers signs I lit them all up using my fire.

I spotted an empty place and went my way there. I sat in the middle and concentrated on myself. I tried to clear my mind so that I can focus on why I'm getting more irritated as time goes by. After trying for a few times, I saw the problem. I saw memories of some of the people I absorbed that I thought I didn't absorb. Even raavas were there. I didn't know why I had it.

I tried To erase those memories and found it hard. I don't know how to do it. I don't exactly have a "How to remove unwanted memories 101" guide book anywhere near me. Time passed and I finally succeeded in removing some. Just like how the virus devours things, I used my chi and flooded the unwanted memories in my mind and slowly was able to remove it from me. After a few trial and errors, one person's memories were finally removed, but what I didn't expect is that I heard the voice of the man whose memories disappeared wailing before I couldn't hear it anymore.

With this, I finally realized that a piece of those people I absorbed souls weren't devoured by the virus and stuck inside me and accumulated. I went ahead and searched for more memories that aren't mine and saw them. I looked around trying to find the left over souls and what I saw shocked me. There at the center of all mind was a black orb with faces of people and at the center was a piece of the light and peace spirit, holding all the souls together. Seeing this made me angry because if I didn't notice my strange behavior, Raava might've been able to succeed in whatever she's planning.

I went near and Raava finally noticed me and sent some spiritual attack. I laughed at that since she's really weak and her attack only did minor damage to me which was negligible since I recovered after that immediately. I'm pretty sure she couldn't even use that spiritual attack all the time since most of what makes her was devoured by the virus already. After that I thought of sending my of chi blast to finally get rid of her but halted when I remembered one crucial part.

My Blacklight virus could literally devour spiritual beings, so why don't I try and guide it to where this mass of soul are? So I tapped into my virus and willed it to move and flood my entire consciousness with it. A few seconds later and I saw tendrils of the virus slowly creeping up in all the space around me and finally pounced on the accumulated souls. Raava seeing all these happen, finally broke down. I felt her grievance and her anger from where I was floating but I didn't care much. Soon the tendrils were finish devouring the souls and I finally found out how the souls were able to escape.

While the virus was devouring the avatar and Raava, at the last minute, both Raava and the previous avatars sent a powerful spiritual chi wave blast against that virus, which gave Raava and the avatar the chance to send a piece of their will to the hidden portion of my consciousness and the virus' detection. After a few days of amassing strength and seeing some of my memories. They started accumulating more and more power and slowly released the emotions from the memories of other people I devoured. It's like a telepathic suggestion which I could ignore at first but after a while, I'll lose my own will from the accumulated psychic attack and Raava will help the avatar's will to take over.

Too bad I noticed it immediately. Anyways, I did another chi scan which is easy to do in my consciousness but probably not outside to make sure that I don't have anymore unwanted memories and souls.

Once I was done, I slowly woke up and noticed that someone was laying down near me. Looking down, I saw Zuzu sleeping and shivering from the cold air coming in from the open door. I lit the braziers again and saw that it's already nighttime. I hear a groan from behind and saw Zuzu waking up.

"You're awake!" Zuko yelled. "Yes, sorry if I worried you Zuzu." I told him. "What was that? Why were you sleeping for so long?" He asked me which made me confused. "What do you mean for so long? I only meditated for a few hours?" "No... you've been sitting there for 3 days already." "What!!" I yelled in surprise! I didn't think doing all that took an entire 3 days. I asked him where the water tribe siblings are and he told me that they are at the empty quarters nearby sleeping. "So are you gonna tell me why you were asleep for so long?" He asked me. Thinking for a few minutes, i decided to explain to him while mixing truths with lies. "I was just trying to figure out some problem about my behavior and why I was too irritated with katara some days ago and found out that's it's because of some of the energy I absorb from the avatar clashing against my own." I told him a few more lies which he seemed to believe and he finally smiled at me with warmth and gentleness. He hugged me and then told me that we should go to an empty quarter and take a rest since it's still in the middle of the night and I noded at him.

The next day, katara, sokka, and zuko we're standing near my room and when I opened the door, the water siblings looked at me with nervousness. "He Azula, I'm sorrry about the other day." Katara looked at me while apologizing. After everything that happened, I realized that I didn't really feel much for this girl and her brother. It was fun during the first time I met them but now, I don't feel any sense of belonging from them. I tried thinking of what I would feel once they're gone, but nothing came up. Right now to me, they're just two people I met and traveled with due to having similar directions and once that's done, we'll be on our way out of each other lives. I looked back at her and accepted her apology and told them that we should find breakfast and then start our already delayed journey.

Few hours of preparation and soon noon came. We started our journey again and head our way towards the northern water tribe. We're still a few days away from the place even though we're flying. I didn't think that the world of the avatar is much bigger than where I came from. Watching it from tv back then didn't really make it feel like the distance between each land was farther from each other.