Chapter Thirteen

Hisashi was on top of Jamie kissing him roughly, Jamie's glasses were on the nightstand and both robes were now down the floor. Jamie was red and he was overwhelmed by all that has now been happening, this time it was really going to happen and he was scared to relieve his nightmare of three years ago. Hisashi began to trail down to Jamie's neck, sucking his skin, leaving marks everywhere. Jamie was clutching the pillow and keeping his eyes shut tight, little small noises escaped his mouth even though he tried to contain himself.

"Wa-wait!" Jamie gasped. Hisashi stopped and stared down at him with his icy stare. Jamie was blushing as he regretted telling him to stop. "I'm sorry I didn't mean to tell you to stop is just well I got scared for a second and well I couldn't c-" Jamie was blabbing again and Hisashi was staring down at him. Jamie couldn't stop ranting again and Hisashi sighed and trailed his tongue from Jamie's chest to his stomachs area. Jamie stopped talking at once and hid his face, embarrassed.

'I hate this!' Jamie began to think, 'So much...!" Jamie began to curse under his breath as the man on top of him began to spread his legs. Panting Jamie closed his eyes shut, tears streaming down his silken-like skin. He avoided opening his eyes, covering them with his inner arm. He wanted Hisashi to stop more than ever, he hated this, he hated not being able to speak out his feelings to his father, he hated not being able to decide things on his own. Most of all he hated trying to please others for their own selfish needs. Hisashi continued to fondle Jamie kissing him here and there, not noticing Jamie's tears.

Skin slapping, grunting, and moaning echoed the walls in rhythms, 'It hurts' Jamie would think. It felt like hours and hours, time was being too cruel. Jamie wanted it to end, but saying something would probably make Hisashi mad, he couldn't risk it. He went with it, he tried to enjoy it but couldn't, who would? Jamie's body although was begging for more, moving his hips, being a reaction from his body. He kept his eyes hidden in his inner arm, hoping time would pass quickly. "NGH!" Jamie yelled as he pinched the skin of Hisashi's shoulder. Hisashi was thrusting inside and Jamie was closing his eyes tightly and cursing in his head.