A bad day...

It already started bad. First I woke up way too late (1.15 hours to be exact) and then I had to run home to change into my girl uniform. At home the dust is waiting for me. Haven't I cleaned just a few days ago? Hah, it's really hard to live in two different persons. I'm not even allowed to talk about one world J live in. The others can at least talk about school when comming home to the agency, but I'm not. If one word would come to know of the other one I'd be crushed and one word would have to disappear. And no matter wich world would know the other, the world that would have to fall apart would be the one with the guys. But they got to me in just those few days. I think we've become great friends since the day I came there.

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I had to give it all I've got, to hurry and not come late, but sadly I didn't make it in time. The second day on a row!

As I step through the door of the corridor that leads to or classroom I see how Mrs. Zhu steps into the classroom and disappears behind the door.

Shit! I've gotta hurry! I can picture what'll happen pretty well in my head: Mrs. Zhu will look at me like there's a second head growing on my shoulder, but doesn't say anything and Mei Mian - well, there I'll have to prepare a good story... That'll be the hardest.

It goes right as I thought. Luckily Mrs. Zhu doesn't ask what happened. If she did so I wouldn't have any good sounding story prepared. As Emmy asks I don't have to be very creative, I'll just tell her the truth: "I've overslept."

"And why?", she asks bluntly.

"It happens to everyone.", I try to reason with her. Luckily she didn't ask while the lesson was still going. Then Mrs. Zhu might've called us out the door and would've asked what was so urgent to talk in the lesson.

"That's right, but that never happened to you before.", Mei Mian still argues.

Hmm, that's right. So I tell her: "You're right Mei Mian, but that was before I had friends. Now I'm no robot anymore. By the way, where's Shen Shenmi?" I try to lead the topic into another direction. I hope she picks it up.

"I dont know. Maybe she's with her other friends.", Mei Mian responds.

"But after yesterday she should first be with us, or not?", I ask irritated. It's unfriendly to do that.

"That's right."

I'm kind of worried. Maybe something had happened to her. She can't be ill, since she was very active yesterday.

Mei Mian and I walk around the schoolyard talking about this and that as something blends me. I turn in the direction it came from. It were just some glasses, but the person sitting next to the glasses wearing girl shocks me way more. It is no one less than Shen Shenmi herself.

As Mei Mian steps beside me I take the courage to speak to her: "Shen Shenmi! Hi!" Because of the great distance I even have to shout. But she shows no reaction. Maybe I was too low.

So I take a step in her direction and try to say something again, but she just shouts: "What do you want? Go away!"

"Cindy, what's wrong with you?", I shout again, not wanting to believe what I've heard.

"Just go!", she shouts again and walks away herself.

"What was that?", I murmur to myself and look at the ground. Something seems off.

"Let her be. We'll go now.

I shut up and follow her. After we sat down on a bench under an old tree I ask her: "You two were going on vacation together..." But Mei Mian cuts me off: "I don't know anymore." After that we don't talk for the day. Shen Shenmi really dissapointed me. Us. What is wrong with her? Or is it me? Have I done something wrong? If yes, then what?

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Time flies by, with me just thinking about the mistake I might have committed and Shen Shenmi's strange behaviour. I dont want to lose her. I really want to keep the cheerful friend I had made with Mei Mian's help. She brightened my day, because she was so funny and careless all the time.

I open the door to our group room.

"Hey, Kay!", Horiacio greets, then bluntly adds: "Hihi, sounds funny!" Then he pitches his voice high up: "Hey Kay, hey Kay, hey Kay, Kay Hey!"

He's got way too much energy for me right now. I just close the door and stay back to our room, searching for silence. People should let me alone today. Then I remember Quentin's wise words: "You'll hurt your friends and they'll hurt you. So our friends should only be those people who would forgive us and whom we would forgive easily." He is so right about that. I'd forgive her in a heartbeat, if shed ask for it. But what if she never talks to me again? I don't want to lose her as a friend!

To distract myself from it all I put on my headphones. The usual sad music I hear plays. Well, in the last time I've heard happier songs, but now I'm back where it all started. Kind of. Maybe I should go somewhere with a better sight, like... the rooftop! I'm gonna go to the rooftop.

I make my way out the room and along the corridor, as I see Xiang Xia walking straight towards me. I frown. Her, no, I don't need her right now. She always stirs up some trouble!

"Kay? The director and his wife want to see you."

The director!? He must've found out who I am!