the beginning

there was this guy who had his real dad left him at 18 month old so he felt like he wasn't good enough for any body not even his family he felt like all he did was trying not to fall and felt like life has only been hurt and he fill like all he do is fail every one he try to fight for life but all he see is sadness and hurt and it hurt him when people brag about being with a female u had a crush on since junior high and it hurt bad I just try to hide all the pain inside bc he cant stand hurt bc it became a second nature and he keep on being made like he ain't good enough every day so alot of time he try run and he fill like all life is doing is causing pain because he cant stand it he fill like life is trying destroy him and that all he is worth nothing that all he try to do is act fine when all he fill is hurt he just rather not live than have the pain he fill because all he see is hurt so he getting use to it so he starting to not care about life because if he is just going keep getting hurt he rather not fill any thing bc if he dont fill he won't get hurt so he started hating his life a while back but now it seem it just getting worse and all he fill is like he dont deserves happiness that all his happiness is about gone because he dont see a reason for happiness any more he tired of people bragging about being with people who the dude like so he ready to say screw caring and screw having fillings for any one and he tired of caring about any one so he giving up on trying to save people he care about when people dont care about his filling so he getting tired of fighting for anything he just ready give up on everything bc he fill like all he does is get hurt so he rather run and disappear because he tired of life all it bring him is hurt so he just wanna run away bc he tired of trying to give a fuck about life bc all life have done was bring me hurt and I'm tired of all the pain and he fill like he won't be able to handle life he look at everyone wondering about life every single day I fill like I cant do nothing live for because my world is gone and if I lose any one else I want be able stand it.