Jealous Of The Breeze..
Deep in her heart...
She was imagining about the days
she spent with the person
she loved the most in her life...
With all her heart and soul..
There was nothing left behind....
She looked at her empty hands and
started crying like a child...
While sobbing, she was saying....
" Mom Dad I am so sorry for not considering
your words...
I know that you are ashamed of me...
I am ashamed of myself too....
I am sorry mom for repeating the same
mistake again ."
Sitting under the shadow of sacred fig.... ( tree name)
She was thinking of her past...
" Dhanak! Is there anything I can change now..
Why I am crying for no reason ...?
(she asked herself)
I was wrong about loving someone...
Indeed love is not suitable for people like me.. above all, I couldn't persue it or couldn't tolerate it anymore"
She was crying like a child.. But there were no tears after some time..
melody of birds humming and the cool breeze,
as if wiping her tears and making her
child_like face more precious and tender....
She recalled some of the words he had told her...
"Whenever you feel the soft touch of breeze on your cheeks.. Do you know I am even jealous of that breeze too. Just because it always brings a smile on your face, I am longing for....."
Closing her eyes and holding her heart for a moment... She started babbling some words....
"Why don't you show up yourself. .....
It's not like we hate each other....
But I can't imagine being alone without you....
Please come back to me....
I am all alone inside even if I am in
millions of people.. "
And then suddenly there was a swing from up to down in her mood..
How can I betray my parents, the most loving and caring parents In this world...
Just for a man I knew some years ago... How can I forget the loving and caring relationship and
Was I about to choose that person only!!.?
regardless of the attention my parents gifted
to me....
Without thinking about them and their feelings...
I am so dumb. I should choose wisely at least... "
She tied her shoes again, got up and walked away from that bench while slipping her hands inside her jacket...
Suddenly her mood was a little better than before as she roamed around in the park
With joy and calmness, she said :
" A beautiful and relaxing weekend" ....