APR | care

I told myself do not fall

stop falling

stop feeling

can't I just eliminate emotion

You know

Just for once

A speck of jealousy within me

And I knew that from then onwards

There was a feeling

That I had

Have?

Towards you

Why does everything have to be so complicated?

Why can I never just have fun?

Why can I never live?

Live my life in liberation

In ignorance

with carelessness

I want to not care

Just for once

But that's not me is it

I could not be that heartless and emotional girl

That I have dreamed of

Replicating

That's not me

That's not my nature

I guess it's a disappointed type of happiness

I guess I am just going to keep on feeling

This feeling

Until it

Stops

- emotions