Wonder

You ever try to stare at the clouds and think what it looks like. or the stars sometimes outside there's what looks of no stars well others can be everywhere u never truly know do u? guess not you may see the news a weather forecast etc so you gotta be ready for whatever happens. or there's rain everywhere it smells nice even puddles. I know I like the smell of magazine paper lol or cardboard probably just me sometime u feel bad physically or mentally and u just wanna sleep no contact but u wanna cry cause u feel like what u said was mean but u can't that's a sign of weakness if you show it people will take control of u turn your emotions to their gain betray u start rumors soon your friends will be gone so u go new places new friends but you'll never trust anyone the same way because they betrayed u so won't they too? you need proof u need to know they care for u u need to care for them your shy embarrassed sad you must not show it the point is life is never the same the way u want it weather friends even clouds if they can change u can to I did but it took a few years and therapy etc I still have my issues but I worked through them so can u it might be hard but not impossible all u need to do is accept not I wanna be better I gotta be better I don't wanna be the weird guy the issues dude I gotta start over work my way up I myself has to truly believe in change people love u your not wrong thinking bad your u not him u and if u can't change yourself nobody can u need will will to live to move on get your act together stop your addiction you can stop it but believe or you'll never truly get better