Talking about life

To me, there are three things everyone should do every day. Number one is laugh. Number two is think -- spend some time in thought. Number three, you should have your emotions move you to tears. If you laugh, think and cry, that's a heck of a day.

Jim Valvano

This is the quote she really doesn't understand in her previous life, her life is just like a hell, she only feel like crying but she think crying is sign of weakness so after chinu's death she feels too numb that she forgot how to cry, but after getting this life she realized what it means. In her previous life she knows about the law of attraction, but she only understands it like this

1. Ask

2. Believe

3. You will get the things and during this whole process you must be happy and also feel grateful, she really tried this step in her previous life, she thinks that she acts like this way things will happen, her divorce will not happen, but now thinking about past she realized she never truly like Raman, her mind is not clear about things, even though she acts like she is happy, inside of her heart she knows that she is angry and scared, she is jealous of her sister and envious of other people these all negative emotion are hurting her from inside, the smile she gives others is stiff, also she wanted to look beautiful, but she never takes firm steps from inside she never feel beautiful, she never work hard for these wish. Now when she gets rebirth and think about previous life as a passerby she can think clearly, as Jim Valvano said she never truly reflect, and never truly laugh the meaning of cry she is taking literally, we sometimes shed tears of happiness also or sometimes some small things touch our heart and we can't help but get emotional.

Also, she realized that in food there are five taste which as sweet, spicy, sour, salty and bitter and they are necessary for health and also we get boar if we eat them always the same way our feeling are also necessary we can't be happy all the time, if there is no anger no sadness no lust no grief no greed, maybe we are not as successful as today. Every feeling has its own importance, the kindness she shows other is also fake, she really doesn't want to act well with her mother in law, even if she died she doesn't care but she does this so she and chinu can be safe, so all these insecurities make her bitter, her body which is not even healthy have to suffer because of these feeling, she can't vent her anger and other feelings on others, she already died inside her heart lots of the time, chinu's death is the last stroke towards her, she collapses mentally first and then her body respond. In this lifetime she doesn't want to die again in her heart because of these negative feelings, she will not act happy if she is not, she will tell people what bothering her, if she gets angry she will show it, never mind if people call her hysteric, she realized that we can't bond happiness with goals if people get happy when they get their first salary, but when they get their second salary can they feel the same joy. We become happy when we get desired success, but the happiness this success bought is temporary, if we enjoy the process then we can truly become happy. If we want to lose weight, we have to feel happy while exercising and also we have to find out recipes which help both to lose weight and also which are tasty. Remembering this she wanted to write about this she wanted to tell people, just constantly thinking about future, and not enjoying the present give us depression and anxiety, also she wanted to tell people to learn to manage their feeling not suppress them because her previous blog get attention she decided she will talk about topic like mental health, woman safety, sexuality.

In her previous life she is coward and shy, she has opinions but she doesn't have the courage to express them, she talks behind the people, now thinking about this she concluded it like she is too useless in her previous life so in this life she really wanted to change things, even single person gets happy from her blog she feels it is her success. Also, she wanted to do everything she desired, life is already short she can't waste it more. After writing her blog she started to make lunch while shooting video, she makes 3 videos daily while cooking lunch breakfast and dinner she also teaches her mother and mauma about camera also chinu help her, in this week Virat is also free so he will help her so workload is lessened, After lunch, she started to read comments in which she read a comment from Aarav Sen, She remember that there is scientist whose name is also Aarav sen in Mg company who is researching on ayurvedic medicine, this company get very famous in future and help lots of people, thinking about this she decided that the books she gets from grandpa's house she will give them to this scientist, she can't read them fully and she can't understand lot's of term. so better it goes to some eligible person, also if her father come and asks for book she have to give them so it is better to give this books to a stranger. So that night, she started to make a photocopy of all these books with the help of chinu and mauma, the books are old so they needed to do it carefully. After getting all photocopy which she takes for herself and decided to give the books to Mg company

the next day she tries to get appointment at the same time Mahendra is discussing about grandpa's health with his brother Arav, Arav is scientist and his interested in Ayurveda to help him in his research, Mahendra build Mb company for him which is subsidiary of his company while talking Aarav's secretary told him that Aditi Deshmukh wanted to meet you, sir, she is asking for appointment" listening Aditi's name Mahindra ask "Why she wanted to meet Aarv?" "sir she have some books about Ayurveda which her grandpa collect she wanted to show it to Aarv sir" "Okay give her appointment," Mahendra says, seeing that his brother not even ask him about his opinion he realized that this woman must be special for his brother so he asked "dada, who is she, are you seeing someone"

"Don't think nonsense, she is the woman who saves Mihir and Mishtu if she asks for money for that books agree to her okay? "Mahendra said

"Okay" Aarav replied

That afternoon she get appointment with Aarav, after watching the books Aarav get excited, these books are nothing but treasure, he really search everywhere but can't get, now even if his brother doesn't instruct him, he really give whatever price she wants so he asked her how much price she wanted for this books"

Aditi said "These books are not mine but my grandpa, if you think these books are valuable then please open a hospital in his village and give his name to that hospital where you can treat people freely" After thinking a lot she decided on this, this is the only thing she can do for grandpa,

"okay" Aarav said, his opinion on Aditi is improved.

Outside the building, while listening to their conservation Mahendra is waiting for her, he doesn't know why he said to his brother to record and send their conversation to him, or why he is waiting for her, maybe curiosity he thinks. After some time he sees her coming with his brother while smiling, he feels something nut can't understand, he said to his driver to go towards her seeing her leaving the building he immediately opens the window and calls her,

"Mr.Ghosh, what are you doing here," Aditi asked

"This is my company I come here for a meeting, are you going home, I am also going on that direction, do you want lift," He asks while his driver thinking they are clearly going to opposite direction why the boss is lying

"no, I am going to kindergarten to take admission for chinu, there are lots of problems I m facing," Aditi said, she knows if she sits in the car she will definitely talk with him and he again makes fun of her so she is not willing

" come in the car I can help you, I know the main person their" Listening to this she decided to go with him, but who knows there is someone watching them.