Away

Adam thoughts- "I haven't been to school in about a week, I got a call from my parents while I was with Kayden, like the couldn't bother me any other time me and Kayden almost kissed! Well I dont know what that was he was probably trying to get something off my face." (While Adam is lost in thought his mind drifts to when he left.) The day Adam got the call- "Ah sorry Kayden I got an important call I need to go I'll see you soon ok?" " O-oh okk ". While at home- my mother and father kept bothering me about taking over the family business. And how I need to be just like my brother. I just ignored what they were saying most of the time. It's not like it matters I never get my way anyways. I spent most my days hiding away in my room thinking about Kayden and are almost kiss. When I got tired of going in my room I went out to the garden to clear my head and have peace. But eventually I got interrupted by one of the maids they always said, "your parents wish to see you, so they can discuss the family business with you". I roll my eyes of course they do, there so stuck with an image of me becoming just like my brother that they dont ever care about me, normal me. I go to my parents and we talk about I kept telling them how I didn't want to join the family business. But they tired to guilt trip me into it saying how proud my brother would be if I took over the family business like he was going to. I knew it was just a trick for them to try to turn me into him. But then it got worse. My father started threatening me. Saying if I didn't join the business he was going to pull me out of my school and I'd have to live with them and I would be homeschooled until I was old enough to take over the business. I couldn't say no because I couldn't just leave school, Kayden was there and being home with my parents is just a constant reminder that they dont care about me, and I will never be good enough for life so I agreed. Present time- after that I rushed home finally in my house in my room. All my feelings just rushed to me, and for the first time since my brother died, I cried. Thinking how my life isn't good enough. How my parents dont even love me, they just want me to be my brother. But I cant take his place, i am not good enough, he cant ever be replaced. I cried so hard that night. I never thought how much my parents could affect me with their words, and there wants. I cant he him, my brothers never coming back, but they want me to replace him to sooth their grief. I just want to go to school so that I can have my sense of safety, with Kayden.