An unanswerable question.

Currently I need to reduce my tension and clear this uneven atmosphere. What should I do?.. What should I do?.... one more wrong step, it will be over for me. I thought student introduction will be better to decrease this intense atmosphere. While I was about say... "Students please start with"... as usual unexpectedly the door has opened. Its her again, seeing her beautiful face had decreased my nervousness. She entered the room speaking Shiva teacher you forgot the students attendance register. Oh! I don't know about it thank you for coming again. Thats what I had said but there is something fishy going at that time. It is about Akia, from the minute she had entered and went outside, the entire room was pin drop silence. I don't know whether it happened because of respect or fear but there is something regarding to it. After she had left the room, the students became curious about me. The clues are zero about it. They started asking questions one after another. Sir, how did you know Akia teacher? Teacher, are you her relative? Sir, how are speaking so causally with her? Teacher, May be are you her boyfriend? I was shocked....what? Where did that come from? You students are assuming too much. She helped me while I was in crisis, there is nothing more and nothing less to it. Thats what I said but I don't feel comfortable about it. it's look like I had kept something hidden, it's alright for now I think... more importantly, why does the students are making questions like those? Out of curiosity I had asked them one question... does Akia is friendly with you?... everything went silent after the question.

My doubts are cleared to some extent for now. They made their faces like Akia is a serious teacher when it comes to students. I don't want to go inside the topic because there is a responsibility on my shoulders which need to look after. Ok students! Lets start the class by introduction. How about from left side? My name is.... the students started their introduction, since their names are different I couldn't be able mesmerize them. All of those names gave me a sensation of watching Japanese anime without subtitles... I laughed a bit by considering the joke. Finally the introduction was over. The subject I need to teach them was simple and easy. I had started teaching the class. The students were more silent then I actually thought. They are listening to my class with intrest and curiosity. At Last the subject I need taught them was completed before the time period. Some students raised their doubts and I had cleared them at ease. Still there is plenty of time until the class is over. Students its seems like we have some time left, is there anything I can help with you? Sir our PT teacher is absent today will you come to assist us? Oh! Its not a problem let me confirm with Akia first. I had called her and asked about the students request? Actually I'm looking for another teacher for that task. If you don't mind please look after them, the call ended after the conversation. Ok students I got the confirmation; let's go to the playground....

It took some time until they had changed up. The schools in this country are completely different from the school I had learned. I had sat on the bench near the shadow of a tree while the students are exercising. Even through the outside temperature was hot but their enthusiasm hasn't stopped. The students are playing different types of games until they are at their limits. The life they are currently living is beautiful but the life ahead of it is horrible. Well it's not the correct time to talk about those things. For the first time in my life I had satisfaction doing nothing. May be taking a nap is better I think... by saying the word I went into some sleep. After some time one student woken me up from the sleep... Sir, the time is over, we need to go back. Oh! I see, let's go then. I had walked with the students to the classroom. After all of them went inside, I thought of visiting the staff room. When I went inside the room the other teachers are starting at me like a weird person. I don't know why they are making those faces, meanwhile Akia came there. Shiva, it's considered as a rude behavior if you won't introduce yourself to others. Sorry Akia I thought they already informed about me. Good afternoon everyone, my name is Shiva. I'm the new English teacher here. Thats what it is about....Sorry, we don't know the new teacher will be appointed today and you look more like a foreigner. There is no need to say sorry moreover I'm a foreigner actually. Really which country are you from?.. I had replied with smile Im from India . What? You came from the India all the way here? Things must be pretty tough to you right!... I was tensed to some extent, please don't dig up about my past... she became silent hearing my sentence. There is no need to tell us if you don't want, let's get along as long as we are here. during all the conversation I had sensed one thing which is none of the other teachers are making an eye contact towards Akia. I was wondering what happened with her. well It's not my business discuss about it. She is waiting for me out side of the staff room. Suddenly principal visited the room with unexpected information. Mr. Shiva, your work place in the staffroom hasn't ready yet so for now you need stay at Akia room.... I was shocked, but why I'm the only person who is friendly with her. I had no complaints about his decision. So I had replied in a formal tone, as you wish sir! Mrs. Akia take him to your room and arrange an empty desk for him to work. I thought she would deny me since it was her room but she had replied Yes. Not only me but the other teachers are shocked as well.

Whether my feeling is correct or not but I'm having a sensation which is the entire school expect me and the principal are not friendly Akia. What was the reason? She looks like normal to me... what should have happened or am I over imagining things. While I was thinking and following her, we stopped in front her room at the second floor. I thought it was a normal like other rooms but the room was amazing. It was the room of well equipped with furniture. It consists of a desk place to work, a bed for sleeping, a mini library, kitchen for cooking food and many more. There is no need for her to go home. What is this place Akia? Its looks like a home to me. Actually I used to stay at school more than home, so I made the room comfortable to my tastes. What do you think about it? I never thought a room like this would exists in the school, but it was the best of all. by killing some time and energy we had arranged another desk near to her work place. Its more like both of us are seating beside to each other.

Would you like to drink some tea? She asked me with a soft voice. If you don't mind, I had replied. After drinking some tea she had started working, since I had nothing to do anything I was thinking of what to do... the wind was flowing into the room from backside window. I was looking at her but she was busy with the work. Instantly I had used a paper and started drawing her. I had no clue what am I doing But my hand isn't listening to me and the pencil wasn't stopping. It took me 15 minutes to draw her illustration. Finally the sketch was completed, still why am I drawing when I had started a new life. Should I tear it? The drawing was so beautiful how I can tear it with my own hands.

I was so focused what to do with the art and forgot about her. She appeared on my back suddenly...I was so tensed, what should I do now? ... Shiva I don't know you were.... what? Please don't say anything... please... I was thinking inside of me. Shiva I don't know you were a good artist too. How did draw this so easily? actually Its a Simple thing to me since I was born as an artist after all. I am facing downward, that was reason I came here. What do you mean by that Shiva? the main reason I had came to this country is to become a fine artist and publish my manuscripts but I was turned down by the organization which gave me the opportunity. While I was on the blink of extension, you appeared in front of me as Sunshine. You are the beautiful thing which really happened in my life. I can say thank you from the bottom my heart. She walked towards the window after hearing my sentence. I thought she would be happy but her face was sad and gloomy.

Hey Shiva can you answer my question? I was wondering what kind of questions it is but it was the same question which was revolving around my mind.... did you think the entire school hates me?...