This is not the first time

I was surprised by his words... my novel, accepted... I asked him one more time, is it true Tatsumi... he replied me yes but I couldn't be able to believe it... yes Mr. Shiva, the content in the script is perfect for the next volume. Would you like to use your pen name as your author name again? or will you use your name this time.. I was shocked, what he means by pen name and next volume... this is my first time writing a novel and how can I have a pen name.... Tatsumi, what do you mean by pen name... what is it, Mr. Shiva? Are you joking with me....? Tanmaya vana is your pen name and your friend arjun is used to be submitting your manuscripts. Its been one and half year since you lastly submitted your script.... nana said, you went to India for some unknown reason and returned few months ago but undeniably your script writing is same as before... sorry, I have some work to do... give me your confirmation by tomorrow... the call ended. I had placed my phone on the table and I was looking at the sunset from the window... I think my memories are really disappeared... what does this world means to me.... slowly the door is opened and Akia was saying something to me... the sound of the world has been turned off for a second… Shiva, are you alright... you are staring at me all the time. Its nothing Akia, I have a hard time differentiating the things between sunset and sunshine.... don't worry about it too much... let's go home... yes, let's go.....

We are walking back to the home; I'm feeling somewhat down after the call with the Tatsumi... I'm the actual author for the book "sound of a heart". There are a lot things which I need know... more importantly what will be the reaction of Akia if she knows about it... my mind is filled with complete fuzz. While I was in the confusion, Akia stopped moving, she is looking at her phone like something terrible happened. Akia are you alright, does anything happened.... Shiva… what? the publisher's are releasing the fifth volume for the book... what? Akia… you should show the different expression for the good news and the bad news... Shiva, did you know… I have been waiting for a long time for this book... this is a sudden surprise for me... Akia, do really like that book?... yes Shiva, this is the book which gave the confidence after you left me... when? ... Sorry Akia I think, I misheard you… yes, I think too Shiva... Akia, there is something I would like to ask but is it okay for you?... yes... what will you do if you get a chance to meet the author Tanmaya vana... no Shiva, I don't what to meet him... why, you like his writings right... how can I put it Shiva, it's not like I don't want to meet him... the thing is... whenever I read the book, I get the feeling of the and the agony he has gone through his life. I feel sad for him if I had seen him real and I don't want to do that… by the way Shiva, you also submitted your script ... what happened?... it's is pending for now, I don't know what will happen... don't worry Shiva, good things will happen to you... let's go, I will make a delicious dinner for you today... thank you Akia, I feel alive now.... what is it? You are looking weird today... it's nothing, let's go home before the day ends. I think I am not going to tell her... I'm real the Tanmaya vana... Shiva, there is also information about an evil organization has been caught by the police today with the help of an unknown person, who do you think he is...

We came back home and as arjun said, he didn't returned today. so I came outside and made a call to him, are you free right now arjun... yes Shiva, tell me... today I had talked to Tatsumi and he said I'm the author for a book... I don't really get it, but it looks to be true... I want to know what happened exactly... Shiva, there is no need for you to worry about past, please be well and happy... we don't have much time left and also one more thing this is not the first time you visited the Japan... bye.... I was standing still and looking at the mobile, what are you saying arjun? this is not my first time... which means... there are a lot of people who knows about me already....well, I don't have much time left... it won't benefit me even if I go inside the details... sometimes the moon shines too, to express the hope but it is far for me to reach it... Shiva, how much longer are you going to wait there... come inside otherwise you will catch a cold because of the weather.... yes, I'm coming back... at that time I didn't realized, Akia has started worrying about me...

The next day, I woke up early today and Akia is still sleeping in the room, I don't want to wake up her... so I went outside after fresh up. I went inside the coffee shop and ordered a green tea... I am still thinking about the yesterday, there are some people who know about me but who are they?... what if, I'm going to encounter them again... perhaps drinking the tea will reduce the problems... the waiter has served me two cups.. Sorry, I had ordered only one cup.... actually the woman behind you ordered the second one... behind me... who are you.... I had frozen; its looks like you had woke up Akia... I think I'm going to sleep forever.. Shiva, how dare you to leave me alone...

After a few minutes, I had started speaking... are you still serious towards me?.. No Shiva, but you are acting strangely. If you need any help, ask me... I'm ready to help you... actually I need your help in something.....

On the way to school, we met Nana unexpectedly and she is walking with us towards the school. She is silent and thinking about something, I thought this is perfect time to ask her. Nana, can I ask you something? ... Yes Shiva teacher... who is your inspiration for becoming a writer?... is it really important to know... no, I'm just curious to know... her reply depressed me a little... "Teacher, we shouldn't talk about the dead people"... what? Dead... I think, I shouldnt ask anything...

After going to the school, I made a call to the Tatsumi... Tatsumi do the things just as they are before... what about the royalties?.. Well, I don't care about the royalties... I will do as you wish Mr. Shiva, have a good day. The call has ended... the reality always rejected me.... I want to know more about my past.... but whenever I try to remember, I am getting the same severe headache.... is there anyone in this world, who can speak to me openly about my past...

the class has ended peaceful today, and I was walking back to the office room... while searching the information about the author Tanmaya vana, I had seen so many books about which he had written but there is no biography about him... who am I?

I went to the another class room on the request of hitomi, since she is absent today... as usual... the students caused me so many troubles since I'm a new faculty to them… the life they are living currently right now are the most memorable for them.... when it's come to me, I lost all of them... I came back to the Akia room after the class. Since all of my classes are over, I am searching for the updates on my smart phone and the entire news feed was filled with the crimes. Just in one day, most of the criminal issues have been solved by the government... and the one who solved them are still anonymous... I think arjun had been worked very hard ... well, it was his profession after all...

I'm reading the third volume of the book, a sound of a heart... somehow I'm getting a glimpse which I had written it and also I'm not... however , everything will be decided in two weeks or even lesser... meanwhile Akia came inside the room and started working on the pending file's.... I don't want to disturb her because I know what happens if she gets mad...we were simply like that for an hour… someone has knocked the door and I told them to come inside.... those are the two girls who asked me the advice yesterday... oh! Its you two, have a seat... thank you teacher for considering our request... shall we start now?... sorry girls, I should be going somewhere, Akia will explain it from the starting... suddenly they turned towards me with a feared look , Shiva teacher… are you trying to murder us because we asked about your privacy.... what? They understood the things too quickly....

Its not as you are assuming, you have seen the things in my perspective till now but you didn't know about her right! I think, you should listen to her and get the overall idea, so that your manga will be perfect... and also don't worry, she won't kill you... bye-bye... I left the room and walked towards the cafe...

Akia teacher, we think it is unwise to ask about you but please help us out... don't use the words like those, I'm not as scarier as I look. which means, will you tell us about your story... normally, I wouldnt tell about it but Shiva requested me to do, so I will tell you what exactly happened... thank you very much Akia teacher, when did it had actually begun... our story has started more than three years ago.....