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Arjun, what do you mean by less than six percent? am I going to die? Thats what the doctor said… Shiva, have some rest... the operation will be conducted tomorrow... I don't know what to do now.... I am going to wait outside for a while... call me if you need anything... and also don't remember anything which causes stress to you... arjun was about to leave... arjun, there is something I want right now... will you get it for me.... arjun turned towards me, what is it?.... it's my diary... I didn't able write it yesterday and I want to complete it... today... arjun was normal and silent but there is something he is hiding. He didn't like to express it in front me.... wait for sometime Shiva, I will get it for you from where you left it.... Shiva, do you regret anything?... no arjun, there is nothing for me to regret, I replied to him with a smile.... I know Shiva, you belied the fact and there is a grief behind your smile...I have the power in my hands but there is nothing I can do for you now... at least, I will get the diary as your last request....arjun went outside and I'm alone in the room... I was looking at the window and thinking about the person named "Tanmaya vana"...

Arjun returned after a while, he brought the diary which I had asked.... I am happy because, it was the thing I wished to write, no I wished to complete... I received it from arjun and opened the page, where I left off.... I clicked my pen, at the same time arjun received a phone call... he heard the conversation of the other person but didn't responded and the call was ended after the other person conversation.... he asked me in a lower tone… Shiva, are you happy?... are you happy for being alive?... of course arjun... everyone should be happy for being alive.... sorry, Shiva.... I'm extremely sorry for what happened... I didn't get it arjun, what are you apologizing for?... nothing Shiva, I wanted to say it... that's it... I think I'm disturbing you; there is something I need to take care elsewhere, write your diary peacefully....

I was writing this diary quite a few months ago, actually I never intended to write one... but, what if I forgot everything again... arjun, Kanna, nana, hitomi, the students and especially Akia.... I always wanted to remember them... that was the reason I started writing this....I assumed, with this help... I can get back what I had lost.... but there is nothing left, and there is no meaning in writing this... I can't remember them even if I had this.... because I'm going to die... so I will fill this page as a last message for Akia...

I placed all of my feelings in writing this one page... the days I had spent with her are so precious to me... I'm going to make this to reach her, even if she hated me... in the middle of the writing, I looked at the widow and the clouds are covering the Sun rays... I usually thought my life was pre-planned just like the others but it was predestined and there are no alterations to it... even in the end, the reality always rejected me… I don't know where she is? And what she is doing now.... I continued writing to the end Akia please don't hate me... live on... I was about to close it but I found something unusual; the last page was folded… I opened the last page and red something written on it unknowingly my eyes are filled with water…wait, why am I crying? Someone... someone said the same words to me once...it was... on that day... she said, remember it Shiva, remember... this is your only chance I was trying to remember and I had a glimpse of my past.... yes, she said it... vana... "I love you more than anything, please live on..." thank you Shiva, I'm happy to be with you... please live on... no, vana don't go... don't leave me.... what was that?... who is she?... what happened to her? .... I'm having the headache again.... my memories, there is something... I became unconscious again...

I know Shiva, what happens to you if you read it... that's why I'm waiting outside of your room... have some rest until I'm returned. I was in my car going to the place where I wanted to visit... everyone sees me as an abstruse person but Shiva is the real one... after all of these years I couldnt understand him well... but Vana did... and she is resting now peacefully, after leaving both of us in the middle...

I visited the grave yard and this please is as calm as ever... I think, she is sleeping deep inside the mother earth... I was standing in front of her grave... the clouds started raining... it was really a heavy rain... I didn't respond to it because I lost the feeling of cold I will become a person who lost everything just like Shiva... I looked up to the cloudy sky and remembered the day, the three of us are in the garden, and I was reading a book... Shiva was drawing the scenery and vana was writing her Novel "the sound of a heart"... I still remember that day, it was really a precious memory for me but now... everything is different... vana said to me once... having money, profession or any man-made objects doesn't make us happy...living close to the person whom we love makes us happier even if it is for a second... also she had shown it to me in her last moments... in the end nothing will be returned... slowly, the rain has stopped and the sun rays are emerging out of the clouds... I heard someone running towards me. I can clearly hear the sound of the footsteps in the rain water... I turned to the direction where the sound is coming from... the surroundings became unclear because of the rain drops on my glasses....I looked at the person and her eyes are just like vana... no, she is vana... she approached near to me and she is out of her breath... when the sun light had fallen her, the ornaments are shined especially the ear rings... she looked like a sunshine after the clouds....

I had taken out my glasses and cleared the water drops. I placed them back... when I looked at the person, I had realized she is not vana she is Akia... but her eyes are same like Vana... I had understood something if something is predestined... nothing can alter it.... Vana, your wish had been granted in the form of Akia... she is not the person who replaced you she is you... I looked at the sun rays in my back... Shiva, I totally get it now, the meaning of the sunshine....

You look so tired Akia... where have you been? Arjun, it's all because of you... did you know, how many places I had visited just in one day... how much did it cost, Akia? A lot you know.... don't worry, I will pay you back... really, ok then I will forgive you for now... just wait a minute, you are changing the topic... yes, where is Shiva, you vacate the house without informing me... don't you know, I would be feared... arjun visualized same words Vana said to him a long time ago...he smiled a little bit... Akia was confused but she was surprised looking at arjun smile... she understood, arjun is happy and because of it, he smiled just like Shiva. It was my first time seeing arjun with a smile like that by the way arjun, what are you doing here? It is far away from the city... it's nothing Akia; I wanted to visit my sister's cemetery... I'm sorry for asking, arjun... who is your sister?... arjun moved to his left side and Akia moved forward to see who it is?... she read the name which had written on the cemetery... Tanmaya Vana... Akia was shocked for a second what? She is dead? No, it's impossible... her new Novel was released just yesterday... and I bought it too... I don't get it... she is your sister... but the Book has Shiva writings in it.... what happened arjun? What is this?...

it is unwise to discuss the details here... let's go back to your home... there is something I would like to ask your mother... at that moment Akia decided... arjun is hiding something, for now I will do as he says until I met Shiva... I need to pay back him for what he did... we went to my home in Arjuns car... I don't know what is going on his mind... I'm sure... Shiva is in some sort of trouble...I need find his whereabouts... I'm waiting in the hall and arjun is speaking with my mom personally, I was wondering... why they left so suddenly...

Few minutes later, arjun came out of the room... and my mother was looking at me differently than before... what has happened between them... what happened mom? Is everything alright? Nothing dear its nothing... arjun told me something important about you, today... and Im so happy because of you... what is it arjun? you are looking at me different today and my mother too is there anything on face... or am I looking funny... no Akia, there is nothing funny on your face... actually, there is another place which we need to visit... let's go there.... where?...the hospital we came to hospital where once I had admitted because of illness and it was same place where I met Shiva... while I was in the waiting hall... arjun went to the doctor who treated me... he is taking some time for the talk with the doctor and I started reading the Novel which I had kept in my bag... I had never understood a single word what Shiva said because of his knowledge in literature and arts... his words are always confusing but I understood what this book had expressed... if he is the real author of this book… then I know what he is gone through.... don't worry Shiva I'm coming for you....

Arjun has returned from the doctor and sat beside me in the waiting hall... I closed the book in my hand... what's going on arjun... where is Shiva? And why are you investigation about my past... because there is a connection, Akia... connection? yes, Akia... but how did you know I was at the flower garden visiting my sisters grave?... well, I had searched for you and I couldn't be able to find you anywhere... so I asked Nana as the last resort... and she said, if they are nowhere to found then there will be only one place... "Flower garden"... so, Nana told you... I didn't know she is still visiting that place...

Arjun, tell me... my brain is filled full of questions... who is Tanmaya Vana? and who is Shiva? What happened to them actually? Akia, have you heard about the explosion at the W.C forest which is near to the coastal area... yes, arjun… I had heard about it... an unexpected accident had happened while the terrorist organization is exporting the TNT... their entire crew has been burned to ashes... yes Akia, the information was true but it was not an accident... Shiva is the one who caused it.....he is the real mastermind behind the explosion....