Life is Great, but My Fear is Not. Despair Approaches

After 2 months of training, I have finally mastered both techniques. King Kai was grumpy at first, but a few jokes loosened him up. Today is my last day here, so I decide to ask King Kai the question needed to finish my quest.

"Hey King Kai. Can I ask you something difficult?" He nods, and I throw him the question. "What is God Ki, and can I train in it?" King Kai freezes suddenly, and looks at me with dread.

"Why did you ask that. Are you trying to die," he hisses at me. He closes his eyes, concentrating deeply. He pales suddenly, and looks at me with sorrow. "You just attracted the attention of someone you really shouldn't have, Okara. Beerus has heard you."

I gulp, and just shrug it off. "I just wanted to know. You are a god yourself, right?" He mutters under his breath for a minute, and then answers. "God Ki is everywhere. It is just hard to use, especially for mortals like yourself. Though, you are dead right now, so utilizing it wouldn't work out very well. You should focus on emptying all of your energy completely, and try to sense the energy around you. If you focus all of your senses at the same time, you may be able to sense it. Then, you can touch it with your spirit, drawing it into yourself. That is the gist of it anyway."

I bow to him and thank him. I ask my next question so I can get out of here. "Can you send a telepathic message to the one know as Goku on planet Earth. Tell him to go ahead and wish me back to life."

King Kai sighs and nods. His antennae spark a bit, and then he nods. "Done. Do you plan on becoming a god or something?" I look at him for a minute and smile. "One day, maybe. Who knows, I may become like you, or even greater."

He just sighs again. All of a sudden his eyes widen and points at my halo. I look up only to see nothing. 'Huh, that was quick.' "Ahem, well, it was nice meeting you King Kai, but I gotta go." I start to focus, and I finally feel it, my brothers energy.

I wave at King Kai, and teleport away. When I feel the difference in weight, I look around and see Goku and Chi-Chi. I smile and walk toward them, only to freeze at the sight of Chi-Chi. Her stomach is huge!!!

She also looks angry and happy at the same time. She walks up to me and smacks me. I fall down on my butt, shocked. "If you ever have sex with another person again, without my permission, you will regret it. I don't care if it's an illusion or not."

'Damn you King Kai, did you seriously rat me out,' I think mournful of my predicament. I sigh though, and decide to take responsibility. I was weak. This is more than cheating. I sacrificed my pride as a saiyan. How could I be so weak? I bow on my hands and knees, and I apologize deeply. The one thing I don't ask for is forgiveness. I can't even forgive myself.

She just walks away, still fuming. Goku is just shaking his head. "I know, brother. I fucked up." He smile softly, "Yeah, you did. But learn from your mistakes. And also, she was more shaken than angry. Look at your clothes."

I frown and look. I'm still wearing the same outfit I died in. I see a huge cut from my navel all the way to the top of my armor. 'Oh. It was that bad, huh.' Goku walks to me, and crushes me in a hug.

He whispers into my ear, "It was horrible, sis. One moment you were fine, and then you along with the other saiyans died. Your wound was the worst. I-, I can't forget how you looked, lying there, dead."

He stands back, sadness still evident in his eyes. "When I got home, I had the hardest conversation in my life, Okara. She broke down completely. I calmed her down eventually, reminding her about the dragon balls."

*SIGH

"We collected them quickly, but Shenron wouldn't grant our request. I asked why, and all he said was that it was impossible, and it wasn't within his power. Sis, Chi-Chi didn't wake up for days."

What I hear hurts me even more. I truly betrayed her trust. I will never fall prey to such a thing again. I don't care if it's an illusion or not. Next time, I'll obliterate such an obstacle. I sigh, and just wallow in my depression.

Goku speaks again, this time more clearly. "One day, we received a message via a voice in our head. He said he was King Kai, and about what you did and what you went through. He said gather the dragon balls, and wait until you said to bring you back."

"Chi-Chi was already showing signs of morning sickness, and she started to lose it. Eventually she calmed down though, and she has been anxious for your return." I finally look at my brother and ask, "Did you get smarter? You don't seem as stupid as usual."

He blushes a bit, and scratches his head. 'The hell is up with him,' I think. I sigh again, and just head towards the woods. "I'll be in the field training, brother. Soon we need to make a trip to King Kai so you can learn from him." He just nods, and leaves me be.

*3 Days Later*

"Ugh," I groan. I've been going non stop for 3 days. I haven't stopped training. I've finally ran out of both stamina and energy. I've been trying to figure out how to sense God Ki, but I seriously have no idea what to do.

I try to get up, but I've used Kaioken too much. Most of my bones are broken, and I'm bleeding a lot. One of my blasts exploded in my face, so here lies Okara.

*COUGH, COUGH

I groan again, trying to wipe the blood of my mouth, but two broken arms doesn't allow much. 'No sensu beans either, great,' I think dejected. Guess I'll sleep here then...

*Midnight*

*Roarrrrrr

I jerk awake and see a big Ozaru. 'The hell? Is that Gohan,' I wonder. I try to get up, forgetting my broken state. I can't stop the scream from leaving me, "Ahhhhhh." Gohan seems to have heard me, and stomps my way.

He is pretty close now, and I just watch, foreboding filling me. I'm seriously not gonna die again, am I?' Gohan raises his foot and stomps on me. The pain is so intense, I pass out.

*1 Week Later*

*Beep, Beep, Beep, Beep

I hear a beeping noise, interrupting my dream. It was a pretty bad dream. It was about me getting stabbed and the blade sliding up. Pretty painful stuff. 'Oh, wait. That actually happened,' I think tiredly.

I try to move, but something is stopping me. I start panicking, and I here that beeping noise speed up. My breathing turns into gasps, because now I feel claustrophobic.

Pain starts to spread, and I feel my panic increase. I can barely breath now. 'What's going on. Why am I unable to move. Let me out!' I think desperately.

"Okara-chan, shh, it's okay. Calm down baby." My mind becomes clearer, and I see Chi-Chi. I feel my tears fall and try to speak, but I can't. Tubes are going down my throat, and my eyes widen.

"Okara-chan, you were badly injured. Gohan became a monkey and crushed all of your bones. When we found you, your chest was partially caved in. These tubes are allowing you to breath, hun."

I see Chi-Chi clearly now, and she is crying. She is touching me, but I can't feel it. 'Great,' I think. 'Another fucking injury, and I just came back to life. At least I will get a zenkai boost out of this.'

I close my eyes, and focus on my magic I got after training with King Kai. I try to assess the damage done, and just thank the gods I'm even alive. If I ever get a chance, I'm going to start working on healing magic.

'Wait... That's it! If I combine my magic with the Life Energy I was rewarded, I may be able to cast healing magic!' I focus inward, and start going through my skill trees.

I see a new tree from the Life Energy, and at the bottom of the tree I see it branch that's connected to another one. I look at the whole picture and realize that multiple branches are connected now. Life Energy seems to have fused with everything.

[System Update]

[Congratulations. Since you have gained more insight into your abilities, all of your abilities will now converge into one skill tree. The use of healing magic has been enabled.]

I grin, feeling triumph for the first time in awhile. I go ahead and look at the new healing spells, and realize something else. My healing ability is better than sensu beans. I can channel energy from outside forces, and use it to heal me. Hell, this sort of reminds me of Majin Buu's healing ability, but better because it's almost instant.

I go ahead and activate my ability, feeling my body strengthen quickly. I flex really quick, and my muscles expand. The wraps that were covering me rip, and I free myself. Chi-Chi just stares, baffled. I quickly jump up, and hug her.

"So, what did I miss? Wanna go home now?" She just stares at me, and finally tells me, " We are staying at Bulma's place. Gohan sort of destroyed the house when he transformed." 'Oh,' I think. "Well, is he okay at least?"

She nods, and wipes her tears away. "Yeah, he is fine. Just upset that he hurt you. When we got there you were in his hands and he was crying. He gained control after hurting you."

"Okay," I mumble. "I was already hurt before hand, so he shouldn't feel too bad. Most of my bones were already broken from training recklessly." Chi-Chi nods again, as if she knew that. She seems to be on the verge of a breakdown.

"We are going now since you are healed. You won't be going anywhere except straight to my bed. We have to make up for missed time," Chi Chi murmurs.

I nod, relieved she isn't throwing me out. I stand up fully, and give her a kiss. "Oh, and Okara-chan. The baby is yours..." My eyes widen, and I just smile. I feel nothing but joy now. I decide to head to the bathroom really quick before we go home though.

I look in the mirror and shake my head. 'I have seriously got to train more. That chick that killed me before might be mad to find out I'm amongst the living again. I go ahead, and wash my face a bit, scrubbing away the weariness. I open my eyes again to look at my reflection, and my eyes almost pop out of my head.

"What is this," I murmur. I look closer at my reflection, examining the new change. I did not look like this a minute ago. I didn't even notice a transformation. As I stare, a girl with red hair and red eyes are staring back at me.

[System Update]

[You have achieved a new form. Congratulations on achieving the Super Saiyan God transformation. Title gained, Legendary Super Saiyan Goddess(Base form is now permanently set as your Super Saiyan God Form. All stats changed permanently). All Ki has been changed to God Ki. Power level no longer calculable.]

[System Update]

[Rank has increased to Goddess. Viewing new stats.]

[Name: Okara

Age: N/A

Race: Saiyan God

Gender:Female

God Ki: Beginner

Class: Progenitor(First Female Legendary Super Saiyan God)

Rank: Goddess

Magic Tier: Godly

Alliance: Neutral(Not a Destroyer or Creator)

Ultra Instinct: 0%(50%=Ultra Instinct Omen, 100%= Mastered Ultra Instinct)]

[System Warning]

[Due to early intervention, other realities may start to blend into your reality.] [BEWARE]

'Ah shit. Here we go again,' I despair. Truly the universe is out to get me. Do I look like I want a target on my back. And what is up with that new title, Super Saiyan Goddess? I sigh deeply, hoping I get a little bit of time off.

*Mysterious Being's POV*

'Hm, she is turning out nicely. I wonder how much we can challenge her.' I look through the hospital walls, seeing everything I wish to. This Universe is ripe for the picking. I raise my hand, activating my ability, World Order.

I smirk at the new little Goddess. 'Hope you are prepared. I have many surprises that you will like. Good luck, Sierra Valeria.' I start to laugh, "Hahahahaha, do not disappoint me!!!"