speedy02

Yu Chen has sunk into despair loving Si Xia, who will never be her's.

But what will happen when Chen gets a second chance at life? 
( This is not a reincarnation novel).

Follow Chen, as she goes back in time to change her future and stay away from Si Xia.

But will she be able to? When Xia also comes back resolute to make her fall in love with him.

P.S. The female lead has a loving family and is not mistreated.

A chance to change

She said, "Since you've been honest with me, can I be honest with you too?"


Sam was a bit taken aback. He was all smiles as he replied, "Yeah. Sure. Of course."


Chen bit her lip, contemplating. Finally she sighed, "This is gonna sound quite weird. But you know, sometimes I'm scared of how much I love Xia."


Chen looked at the sky, her expression unreadable, "You know, right now, you kind of touched a nerve. I know we've know each other only for very little time, and there's no real commitment between us. And that's why...."


Yu Chen bit her lip, "You know, what you're trying to warn me about, that's exactly what I am afraid of. Afraid that I love Xia too much. Way too much. More than he loves me. I'm afraid that one day he will stop loving me and then I won't know what to do."


"You know what you need?" Sam said in a small voice.


"What?" Chen asked, her voice melancholy.


Sam: "You need to get him out of your head."


Chen: "Maybe you're right. I feel like my life actually circles around Si Xia. And he's busy with his own."


Sam: "That's exactly what I was saying."


Chen: "You know something else. I'm afraid that one day, I'm gonna give all of myself to Xia and then there will be nothing left once he decides to go away."


This time, Sam was silent as Chen continued, "I feel like one day I'm gonna loose myself trying to be somebody Xia loves. I'm afraid I'll willingly do anything he wants me to. I'll stop dancing, cooking, maybe even coding and hacking if he wants me to."


Sam: "What!? You can't be serious. Coding is like in your veins. You can't give that up."


Chen: "I know I'll be willing to, if he asks me. And I'm sure he will disapprove of these some time or the other. And I'm afraid I'll be smothered by my love for him."


Sam: "You cannot love him that much Chen."


Chen: "I don't know. Maybe I do. But it'll be too late when the time to really test it out comes."


Sam's voice was so small that it was barely audible as he said, "You don't need to be smothered like that. You can try to love someone else. Someone who is compatible with you. Being with whom will be as easy as breathing."


Chen sighed, "Maybe I do. But I know I'll only be hurting other people. Experiments should not be done with people."


Sam: "What if the other person was willing too?"


Chen looked at him, surprised, "What do you mean?"


Sam: "See Chen, you know I like you. My love is not something seeped into the bones. You can try to be with me. If it works, it'll be great. If not, we will still stay friends."


Chen looked away again, clearly deep in thought, "I don't know Sam. It might do more damage that good."


Sam placed his hands on either side of Chen's face and turned it to his. He said, inching closer to her, "No harm in trying. No pressure. We'll just see. If it doesn't work out, you'll always be my friend."


I'm afraid of how much I love him