Knowing the pieces

PROLOGUE

In the world full of lies, judgments and failures, human are survivors in every day. Some people think life isn't easy. We fight then lose. We dream then fail. We try then give up. We are weak for being human. Breakable, hollow, inept, indelicate, immoral, wicked ... we are the ones who decided who we wanted to be for ourselves and to be seen by others. We are responsible in our own decision and sometimes regret the things we never did because cowardice come into place. Fear of failures and judgments. Wondering how will each individual understand and accept a situation that even the smoothest heart switched into a heart of stone and the toughest heart breaks all of a sudden .

How would courage handle your fate and lit up your fantasies and wildest dreams? How can an easy heart conquer daily insecurities? How could we ever live beyond limits in dealing with life's consequences? How can we we manage to escape from our problem and let it be the problem of the whole universe? Why do people live once and given less time to make things right?

Whatever reason life has we sometimes came to realize how destiny works and with a cruel taste of fate, we can finally say it's the right time to give up and embrace the mistakes that we have committed.

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She's so fine, gorgeous, so nice. And there she goes so perfectly the brown eyes and a thin face. So smooth and flawless. I felt my sweat dribbling upon my ears and a warm wind flipping my hair. The sense of energy I can't control and the kind of feeling I can't drag down. She looks at me and I am slowly melting . She step closer to me in slow motion that breaks the music. Our faces mingles as our eyes met and slowly ... slowly.. slowly kissed my...

" Saammm!!!! " - my Mother shouted from downstairs.

Ughhh! Here my Mom again. She wakes me up in bed every morning while I'm having my beautiful dream.. Whatt!? A Dr-eam? How I wish its true .

" Mom!"- I replied.

"How could you stay in bed with this time? Get up and prepare for school!" she cried

" Yeah! Coming!" I shouted back

That's my Mama Hazel. Sweet but psycho. She tends to manage the house and handle problems in easy way.

We were not rich. My mother is a housewife and my father work as a laborer in a company. I have 2 siblings my Ate Veronica a.k.a Arron and Ate Alexandrea a.k.a Alex. Im their youngest sister Zamira a.k.a Sam. Some prefer to call me "Mira" and some would call me "Sam". My Father came from a purely Chinese breed. His parents taught him manage their business for his future. He is a busy person and always travelling. He often stopped by the eatery, which my Mother is working as a server. Father saw her and admired her so quickly. They had a good time and decided to live together. Father did not hesitate to marry her but his parents argued for he should marry a Chinese young lady who owns a huge business in Taipei. As my father loves my Mom that much, he became a rebel and disobeyed his parents. They still came trying to get him back but my Dad will soon becoming a father. His whole family abandoned him and get the business that he started. He felt so down for losing half of his life so he apologized to his parents they remains unforgiving.

Now, he build his own family, he tried his best to make things better, fix what he had left broken and avoid us from the things that he had gone through. He is the greatest man I ever had.

"Sam, you're excellent but still can't dare to reach the highest rank." -Mom said

She is really a perfectionist but my Dad? He is fine whatever grade I have as long as I did not fail. But she? She wants me to be the most outstanding student which I know I cannot and I don't deserve.

"Mom, the important thing is that, we love each other so much. We are family, and Family is Love. Haha!" I jokingly replied.

Everyone laughed except my Mom. She really is a Killjoy. She wants me to take medicine even I am scared of blood, seeing other people's death and can't dare to even cause them dead.

My Dad drive me to school even it is just a walking distance.

"Thanks Dad!" as I kissed his cheeks

"Bye bye" said Dad

He is the bravest man I ever had. He is strong and with him, every day is so fine and so sure. He taught me to be a fighter but if there is no need to fight then talk about it or just walk away. He showed me the reality and sacrifices anything for our family. He is always there for me whenever I needed him as if he is my closest friend. He is the man I love the most and the man I will love every now and then.

** AT SCHOOL **

"Good morning. As it's your first day of school, a good day to meet new friend. Listen, Look around and choose one to have a talk and get to know them in five minutes. Go!" said our teacher

I am at 11th grade now in a new school. Everybody excitedly approached to each other and their noises freak me out. Nobody came approaching me until a guy came near.

"Hey! Looking for a partner?" he said

I don't like the way he looked at me but I was left no choice.

"Come on! The time is running! " he added

"Okay?" I sarcastically replied

"Just write surname and everything." He said

I cant hear him clearly but I just nodded. Our teacher called me.

"Okay Miss? Let's start with you." Teacher said

"Read that!" as we exchanged papers

"Ah.. Mmm.. Good Morning guys. My partner is Stephen Rhean Tandugon 18 years of age.. Good luck baby! Huh?!" I reacted ghastly

Everyone laughed and I looked at him dreadfully. He just smirked and read mine.

"Good day everyone! She is Tan. 17 years old, very exact to be my baby " he glanced at me like a pervert.

"Yieeeeeeee?!! "

"woooohhh!?"

"Baby yeah!!"

Everyone is teasing us. I felt like I want to wreak his face into pieces.

"Excuse me? I am not Tan. My name is Zamira. I am Zamira Tan" I said.

"Oh? Sorry for that Baby girl. But you wrote Tan instead of your exact name" he said

"Because you said "Write Surname!" So I wrote my surname! Idiot!" I shouted

I really want to beat him now.

"Woahh! You're deaf baby, I said "Write your name" You didn't heard me right?" he replied

I am very embarrassed and feel so small. He managed to smirk at me when I was really in anger. Others continued until the bell rings for recess time.

"I'll send you the seating arrangement tomorrow . Goodbye Class" said our teacher

I went to the cafeteria after the class. I saw my Childhood friend named Zaldy.

"Hey? Sam? Break time?" as he slapped my shoulder

"Eeeyyy! You stupid idiot is here! How's your first day?" I replied as he sits beside me

We were too close as if I had a brother.

"Nah! I was planning to enter the audition to have my daily trainings for a chance to have a slot for the competition. You want to join?" he asked

"I stopped playing chess when I was on 9th grade because my Mom wants me to focus on my Academic." I replied

"Sad. You alone? " he asked

"Yeah maybe , but surely I won't be too long here." I said

"Hey bitch! You enrolled here?" asked Jean

She is my former friend in the last school I attended.

"Who'ssss thisssss? You bitch haven't told me you had a boyfriend!" she added

"No! He's a friend! Haha! " As Zaldy and I we're laughing

"Hahaha! I'll wait for you 4 pm after the audition. Pick any food you and your friend like. My treat! I need to go." Zaldy whispered

He went to the cashier pointing us and waved goodbye.

"Uyyy! who's that yummy guy? A friend, for sure you have his calling number? Hahaha!" Jean said

"Yeah but I don't know if it's still the mobile number he's using and I guess well be having his permission first" I replied

"Hello? Sammygurl! Im a friend, not part of media hello? Just ... just be generous this time my dear friend" she said

"Okay. But swear you'll never fool around. I knew you." I warned her

"Yes dear!" She replied

I gave Zaldy's number and I knew Jean grabbed that opportunity.

Zaldy is a longtime childhood friend back in my childhood days when we stayed in Toril, Davao City. I met him while playing ball games in the neighbor's backyard and we played all day long. He taught me to ride bicycle and even drives me home when I gets tired from a long ride. He buys me food and guards me like a dog. I could still remember were gone through days that we are both scolded for staying late at night. Gone through days that he causes the towns power interruption for he pulled the connection while hanging his kite up. He even slept on our sofa because he's scared that his parents might discipline him again and kneel him down on the floor with the salt and later we heard that his parents went to the police station reporting him missing. He sometimes makes fun of me but still cares about my feelings. We grew up together and upon knowing he's moving away, I feel so weak. I'm scared to fail on having a friend in high school. I'm afraid that no one would be there like how he does, like how he made me feel so special and worthy, like how we walked and played in the rain, like how to surpass my fears and pain.

Jean on the other hand is my 9th grade friend. She influences me to mingle with guys and taught me ride a skating board. She strayed at night and has a lot of money to spend with the things she wanted to have.

I've seen Zaldy waiting at the corridor in between our school canteen and my room. He is full of sweat but still looks fresh. He smiled at me and I rolled my eyes. Here he goes again.

"Hey? Have you eaten? Ahmm… By the way, did you pick some food and drinks in the cafeteria?" he asked

"Yeah. I ate the wrapper, cellophane , the straw and the table and the chairs and the people and the cashier... I starve that much." I boringly said while locking our room

"Haha! What happened? You okay?" he asked

"I hate being bullied. Am I a loser?" I asked

"Yeah you are! Hahahaha!" he replied

"Really?" I curiously asked

"Haha! You are! I said you are. You are my sunshine, my only sunshine you make me happy..." he sing further

I looked at him badly and walked faster.

"Hey! I was just joking! Ahhhh Mmm.. I forgot something very important! " he said as he run after me

I stop and look at him curiously.

"I .. I .. Am so handsome! Hahahaha! " he burst in laughter

I walked fast and ignored him while talking.

"Hey! Hahaha! Why are you like that! You know? If I were you. You have to divert your attention to other things. Why didn't you join the chess competition? I'll surely be the best cheerleader for you!" he smiled.

"Cheering? In a mind game? Really?" I boringly replied

" Hahaha! Okay okay. So you focus on the chess mat Hahaha!" He added

"Idiot." I rolled my eyes

We reached home and saw his motorcycle parked outside.

"Is that yours?" I asked

"Yeah and everyday we'll go to school together" He said

Here he go again. He waved goodbye as he wink at me.