Part 5

[Xian Le's POV]

It's been a year since I met Lou Fan and we found out that my exiled sister has returned to the palace but she wasn't a she but a he and he was also the lunatic of the empire! During the alliance meeting, my heart broke when I saw Prince Dongliu and his wife-to-be. I've always loved him but now I need to move on.

Brother Qiong introduced me to Ye Lou Fan who is actually his son, not biologically but it has something to do with him being part of the orphanage that brother Qiong stayed at for five years during his travels.

Lou Fan and Xinxi Yue are from that orphanage whereas their sister Chushan was picked up along the way by my cousin Wu Yong. The news of Wu Yong and brother Qiong being together and said their vows in front of the ancestral tomb blew all three empires along with the smaller kingdoms into an uproar.

Arriving at the palace where the Wu family resides I'm greeted by the attendants who inform me that their masters are in the garden.

I walk towards that direction and see brother Qiong and Wu Yong making out on the bench. Brother Qiong is straddled on his husbands' lap while they are in a heated kiss. I stare at them and feel the envy build in my heart.

Although I've been out to restaurants and on walks with Lou Fan, the only things we ever did was hug and kiss but our kisses were never as passionate as Wu Yong and brother Qiong's is. I also noticed that he's been keeping a distance from me as a servant would and I don't like it. Another thing is that Lou Fan, he is most of the time busy along with his father Wu Yong and my eldest brother Emperor Xian Rong.

I suddenly no longer feel like accompanying the Wu couple but as my thoughts return I see that the Wu couple is staring at me with worried looks on their faces.

Scratching my nose nervously I clear my throat and force a smile, "A-Afternoon."

They look at each other knowingly then get up. Brother Qiong walks over to me while Wu Yong goes off in a separate direction after he greets me and kisses his love on the cheek.

I'm forced to sit on the bench with brother Qiong hugging me. "Baby brother what seems to be bothering you?" he asks making me sigh.

Looking up at the sky I say, "Well, it's just that seeing you and Wu Yong together so intimately makes me jealous."

He looks at me with a frown and asks, "I thought things were doing well between you and Lou Fan, is he not treating you well?"

I look at him and smile bitterly, "He does but he is very cautious. I've already fallen for him and told him that if he wants to we can become more intimate but he just smiled and kissed my cheek. Our kisses aren't as passionate as yours and Wu Yong's and I want it to be. I'm ready to be intimate with him and I know it but I don't know if he even wants me as much as I want him."

Brother Qiong pats my back and wipes away my tears that I didn't know were falling. He hugs me closer to him and says, "I understand your feelings but it seems like you don't know your man at all. Has he told you about his past?"

I nod my head, "Yes, that he met you in the orphanage and he grew up there."

Brother Qiong shakes his head, "No not that, his past before the orphanage. His past is pretty traumatizing and he just seems to treasure everything that he finds since then including you but that son of mine is very stubborn just like Wu Yong so you will have to make the first move or else the two of you will never get intimate at all."

I pull away from him and look at him with a frown. Just as I'm about to question him, Wu Yong returns with Lou Fan beside him who is wearing knitted brows. They stop in front of us and he kneels in front of me, "My father said that you are trouble, what happened?" he asks worriedly.

I look at Wu Yong who is already holding his love then I look at brother Qiong who is looking at me with a raised brow. "We'll leave the two of you to talk," he says and they walk off holding hands.

When they are out of sight I look down at Lou Fan who is holding my hands in his. I pull my hands back placing them on my lap and glare at him, "I hate you!" I say and he looks at me with wide eyes.

His hands grab mine and he starts talking in panic, "B-but you just told me you loved me yesterday h-how c-can y-you s-suddenly just…" I get up and start to walk away.

I don't want to face him like this! I don't hate him but I don't know what to say. I can't just outright say that he must kiss me and fuck me till I can't feel my legs or fuck me so hard that the entire empire can hear me yell his name in pleasure even in pain it will be fine!

He calls my name and before I know it he picks me up by my waist and throws me over his shoulder. I yell, "Let me go," but he doesn't say anything and makes his way to his bedchamber. When we reach it he shuts the doors behind us and throws me onto his bed.

Climbing on the bed, he locks me between his legs by sitting on me and he grabs both my wrists and locks it above my head. With him hovering above me and staring straight into my eyes is frightening. I try to kick and move but I can't, he really is too strong.

Huffing I look up at him and surrender. A smirk tugs at his lips after he sees me give up but then he turns serious, "Explain yourself!" He demands and I look away.

He firmly grips my wrists with his one hand and uses the other to force my face to look at him. He forces a kiss on my lips that hurts but only because my mouth is closed. I open my mouth giving him access and his tongue sweeps in and explores my mouth but as usual, it only lasts for a few seconds.

I whimper as he pulls away. He looks down at me with a frown and I shake my head. "L-Lou F-Fan," I call as I feel the tears fall from my eyes.

His grip on my hands and cheeks loosen slightly and I immediately grab his face and pull him down slamming our lips together. Lou Fan pushes me down and pulls away. I look up at his shocked face and whimper, "W-why won't you kiss me?"

His brows knit in confusion, "What are you talking about?"

"Lou Fan, what do you see me as? Your lover or your prince?" I ask in frustration.

He moves off me and sits on the edge of the bed and looks at me. I sit up on my knees and look at him with desperation, "Answer me!"

He sighs and looks ahead of him, "Xian, you know that you are both my prince and my lover so I…"

"I DON'T WANT TO BE YOUR PRINCE!! I just want to be your lover, I want to be yours," I quickly get off the bed and stand before him. Cupping his cheeks I raise his face to look at me. I kiss his lips and pull back, "Lou Fan, ever since we've been together, there is nothing more than just a hug and kiss between us. Do you not want to be more intimate than with me? Am I not what you want?"

He places his hands on mine then pulls them to his lips and kissed each of my fingers. He pulls me closer to him making me sit on his lap and I make sure to straddle him. With our faces near each other, we look into each other's eyes and he cups my cheeks.

Kissing my lips gently, I hear him sigh and pull back. Looking into my eyes he says, "Of cause I want you just to myself and all of you Xian. But you are a prince and I can't just have my way with you. What if I end up hurting you and we can no longer be together again? I love you as much as you love me and I am glad I met you. I'm just afraid that one day you'll get tired of me."

I shake my head, "I won't I promise and I'm just as afraid of you no longer liking me. I promise I'll love you forever but you have to stay with me forever."

He suddenly laughs and pulls me closer to him, "Well I'm not going anywhere."

"You have to promise to love me always," I say softly while hugging him.

"I promise to love you as long as I live," he answers making me smile.

"Promise to kiss me as much as I want," I say while squeezing my eyes shut.

He chuckles and answers, "I promise to kiss you as much and as long as you want."

Sighing in content I smile then say, "Promise you'll make me yours."

"I promise to make you mine," he answers and I pull away to look at him.

Staring into his beautiful eyes I say, "Promise that you'll make me scream your name so that the whole empire can hear us making love."

Lou Fan stares at me blankly and I see his eyes darken slightly like that of an animal staring its prey down. In a voice I never heard come from him before he asks slowly, "Is that what you want?"

I gulp and nod my head slowly, "I want to be yours, body, heart and soul. I want all of you in return too."

His gaze hardens for a moment and the hands around my waist tighten while pulling me into his chest. With my head against his chest, I can hear his heart beating steadily and it's strange since mine is beating erratically.

After a moment of silence he says, "Wang Xian Le, I hope that you won't regret this."

'I won't, I promise' I swear in my heart.

I fell asleep in his arms and woke up to a bare-chested Lou Fan with myself wearing only my inner robe in the middle of the night. We're covered in a quilt that's mostly covering me and half of him.

I get up slightly leaning against the frame and pull him to rest his head against my inner left thigh. I comb his long hair with my fingers and bring it up to my nose to take a whiff. I feel a shudder as the wood and lavender smell enters my nose.

The shudder travels all the way to my little brother and my eyes widen as it stands at attention right near his nose. I gasp as he moves slightly closer to me and close my eyes and my nose and mouth trying to muffle my panic.

His head moves more as he turns and after a moment he settles down. I lower my hands and open my eyes and under the moonlight, I see that he is looking up at me. Lowering my hands I cover my shaft only to hear, "Ashamed?"

I don't answer him verbally and only nod my head for a yes. He doesn't say anything and just gets up. We switch positions with me laying in between his legs. We sit there in silence and I whimper softly at the uncomfortable feeling growing inside my body.

"L-Lou F-Fan," I call to him and he gets up from the bed leaving me in surprise. The uncomfortable feeling intensifies but I grow sad as I hear him walk away and open the doors. He shuts it behind him then returns a few moments later, he returns and the room lights up.

Lifting my head up I see him walk in with a candle. He places it down on the nightstand and looks at me. His eyes trail my heaving body then he sits down on the edge of the bed by the steps. He pulls at the string holding my robe together and it falls loose against my skin.

His hand slides up my left leg to my thigh gently and the feeling of the pads of his hand trailing up my skin sends shivers up my body. He pushes the fabric off me and runs his hand up my stomach. His hand reaches my neck and he squeezes down chocking me.

My hands fly to his hand chocking me and he just keeps squeezing harder but it feels slightly gentle. I claw at it, "L-Lou F-F-Fan what?"

In his deep and husky voice, he interrupts me, "Don't worry, I'm not trying to kill you."

Before I can ask him what does he mean by that he orders, "Comfort yourself."

My nails digging into his hand stop as I stare at him confused. His hand around my neck loosens but is still firmly gripping me. He raises a brow while looking down at me and I lower my hands, trailing them weakly against my stomach to my shaft.

Swallowing the saliva pooled in the back of my throat, I grab hold of myself and tug from the base up to the tip. My body shudders at finally being attended to. I feel embarrassed about having to do this in front of him.

Turning my head to look away I close my eyes and continue but his hold around my neck tightens as he asks, "Who told you to look away? Look at me or you'll regret it."

The harshness in his tone frightens me and I turn to look at me.

Once he sees that he has my attention he smiles down at me gently and loosens his grip. After kissing my forehead he says, "Hurry up and make yourself cum for me."

I swallow and do as he says. Stroking myself while looking into his eyes. From time to time his eyes move between my eyes and my shaft.

My body twists and turns while I squeeze my cheeks together and my legs open and close as I near my climax. "Aah! Urgh!" I arch my back as my orgasm escapes me.

I shut my eyes and sigh sated as my body trembles. His hand leaves my neck making me feel empty inside. I open my eyes and look at him. He's staring at me with narrowed eyes and a smirk.

Leaning down he kisses and smiles against my lips. Pulling back he looks down at me and nuzzles my nose, "Good boy."

After that, he cuddled me to himself and we fell asleep again.

True to his words, he took me out for breakfast then took my virginity in a house he bought, when? I don't know. We come here often so that I can scream his name at the top of my lungs and before that he slaps my ass warming it up before he rams himself inside me.

Funny enough. The strangest thing about our relationship isn't the fact that he is a beast in bed but the fact that he told me, after our first kiss, he fell in love with me so if he never did then we wouldn't be here no?

I'll forgive him since I love him.