Now

flashbacks ended*

Those were the last moments Colins an I shared. If only I know that it would be the last I should've stayed with him. How could he leave me like this? I still can't accept the reality that he is gone. It's been a month since Lins passed away. The thought of his death also kills me inside. His parents told me that a part of him will always be with us, but him being here physically is different. He is too young and he didn't deserve this. What will happen to me now? How will I survive this life without him? He was the only one who was there for me. The moment my phone rang and it was her mom who was talking it already worried me, and when she spoke I finally broke down. When she told me that Colins was hit by a car and he was declared dead on arrival in the hospital I totally lost it.

My life became a total mess when he died. I learned how to smoke and even drink. It seems like he brought with him my will to live when he left. I am now looking at the necklace Lins bought me, but he wasn't able to give it to me himself so his parents did it for him. It was insaide a small wooden box, when I opened it there was a necklace with a pendant which is a small clock and a letter written by Lins.