Sadness And What?

After I read the letter that Colins wrote, My head went blank and the only thing that I remember is that Colins loved me. He loved me not just as a friend but a romantic kind of love! My head is spinning and I still can't absorb that things that I have read. Right now I just want to see Colins. I want to talk to him. I want to make things clear because I still have lots of questions in my head. "Colins where are you? " I whispered even if I knew that I will not receive any answers. It is ridiculous, I am ridiculous for still hoping that all of this is just a dream. When I finally calmed myself I decided to visit him in the cemetery.

It took only twenty minutes when I found myself at the cemetery gate. I bought flowers and candles for Colins. I never imagined that I will be buying those things for his grave. In fact I never imagined him have a grave in this age. I drove to the place where his grave is, and I put down the flowers and candles for Colins. I prayed first, and after that I stared at the ground for a moment. "Lins I'm sorry if this was the first time I payed you a visit. I didn't have enough strength to see you like this. You're so unfair, you left me too early. You should've told me first that you loved me before you left, I should've known. We should've spent more time together, I should've treated you better. " saying those words made my tears fall down slowly. "Lins how are you? I miss you so much. I feel so empty without you. Um... Thank you for the beautiful necklace, I love it. I hope you're right when you said that time will bring us together, but I don't want to die yet ok? " I stayed there for a couple more minutes until I've decided to leave. "Goodbye Lins, I miss you and I love you. Take care. " after saying those words I finally left.

When I arrived at home I took a short shower. I was sleepy so I decided to sleep. I am still wearing the necklace that Lins gave me when I fell asleep.

*alarm beeping*

I woke up because of the noise of an alarm clock. Actually I don't remember setting an alarm. I looked around and it was still dark so I decided to sleep again. After some time I heard my phone ringing so I slowly grabbed it and looked if who was calling. My spirit suddenly woke up because of the shock when I saw Colins name on the screen. How can he call me if he's gone?! So I hesitantly answered the phone and I cried. "Ali! Where are you?! You're late for class. " yes it was Colins but how?! Am I dreaming?! I am still confused about the things that are happening right now.