Something Off

It is already breaktime when we arrived in school. I see our classmates and teachers, and everything feel so normal. Nothing feels weird except for the presence of Lins who already passed away. While I was talking to myself I can see that Lins is starring at me like something's wrong. "Are you alright? " he asked, "ofcourse I am" I replied. "Have you been staying up all night again? Your eyes look swollen." he continued, maybe it was because of all the crying I did, I guess I must stop smoking here too or else he will surely think somethings wrong. When will this day end? I can't process anything at all. I need sometime to think of what's happening right now.