The devilish tell

The sky was as clear as water,the moon indulged the view. At least it was. now all I see is something that a man had done. Something that will haunt me forever. It was like looking at something that wasn't real. I was actually certain it was just that. As I looked up at the nothingness I thought to myself about my life and how I was living it. As I thought more and more I came to a conclusion. But it was something that was not going to be just blurted out. Because what I had been thinking for the past few moments was something that you could say passes off as crazy. So I knew what I had to do. But the only problem was that I would have to be listening to something that was telling me to do things. Things that God would punish me for. Things that only a bad man was capible of. My mind was racing with unthinkable thoughts. The same thought that I cant talk to you about. You would punish me for the sins I have done before I did them. I need to serve some kind of Justice to this horrible world called earth. The bad man tells me to do bad things. Things that I want to do. I have always loved to kill. But the question was am I a monster. Or am I just a subject to the devil's hellish way?